Category: Numerology



In honor of my newest book release NO MATTER WHAT, a paranormal thriller based on the concept of reincarnation, I thought I’d post some thoughts on this controversial topic.

People either believe in it pretty strongly or they don’t buy it at all. Some might be on the fence about it but even they are more skeptical than not. There was a time, though, when the majority of the human population believed in reincarnation. Now, I could quote books that cover this subject and try to state my case in why I believe in it with data from others, but why? I have found that our beliefs are strengthened through personal experience more than anything else. So, I want to share MY experiences and thoughts on it and I’d love for others to share theirs as well. I would. The subject is fascinating!

So anyway. I first heard of reincarnation from various paranormal and occult books I picked up in high school (we had a pretty decent school library, I have to say!). I was doing some research on the paranormal because of that haunted house I was living in at the time (I’ve published several blog posts on my ghostly encounters if you’re interested!). I was determined to learn what I could about the spirit world and reincarnation was often mentioned. Many ancient cultures believed in it and most Eastern religions still do today. In fact, some cultures didn’t just BELIEVE it, they accepted it as a known FACT! I mean…ever watch those fascinating History or Discovery Channel shows on the Egyptians? They took the whole thing quite, quite seriously.

I have to say, though, that is was the book Audrey Rose that really fired up my interest! I don’t know why but I really identified with that story!! Sure it was a work of fiction but after reading other books about non-fictional accounts of Past Life memories, it seemed pretty darned plausible to me. I mean, here’s our hope that we aren’t all doomed for hell! I try to live by a decent moral code but I am no Mother Theresa. So, am I destined for hell? I enjoy a drink on occasion (those new Whipped Pinnacle Vodkas are going to be my downfall!), I have a temper and (dare I admit it?) let loose on a few choice words every now and then that would be better left UNSAID! I can be pretty critical about anything and everything (and then I get on my own case about it!). It is no fun airing my faults but the fact is, most of us have some, and many of those vices or faults we fall victim to are considered SINS! (sigh)

As for one of the really bad sins, well…I haven’t killed anyone DIRECTLY but I was in the military and I can’t say for sure that any of the weapons I prepped for the pilots to use didn’t end up taking a life or two. Does that make me guilty by association? Are the military exempt? Some say yes, others say no…who is right? Does it matter? Not if reincarnation comes into play!

My favorite authors on this subject are Edgar Cayce the Sleeping Prophet (he’s truly amazing!!) and Dr. Brian Weiss who is on a book tour right now for Miracles Happen: The Transformational Healing Power of Past-Life Memories.

Another reason I came to accept this belief is my own gut-feeling on the subject. When I read about it, there was this sense of acceptance deep within. Now, your gut feeling might tell you otherwise. And if that’s the case, whose gut is right? Now THERE’S a question! My belief is this: regardless what we believe, if it’s true, then it’s true and if it’s not, then it doesn’t matter much because we won’t be back to ponder the question again! (smile) Will believing in it send us to hell if it isn’t true? Good Lord, I think our LOVING God is more merciful than that. I’m sure he’ll straighten us out when we get over “there” (on the “other side”).

Other than all the stories I’ve read on it, I’ve had a few amazing dreams that have helped me along with this belief. I was still in high school when I had this dream that I was a male soldier (I guess our genders don’t much matter in the whole reincarnation process) and in the middle of a war battle. I didn’t recognize the uniform I was wearing but later I was able to match it to those similar to those worn during the World War I/II era. So anyway…I was right in the middle of battle, shooting at the enemy when suddenly we were getting overrun! We were told to retreat but I stumbled and fell. Knowing I could not get away, I tried to play dead. The enemy wasn’t having it. They surrounded me, lifted their guns and shot me several times. Now really, I’m thinking THOSE soldiers committed the worst deed but I’ll leave them to their Karma and worry about my own. I remember feeling very HOT and then I was suddenly floating over my body and feeling no sense of attachment to the bloody mess below me! I woke up right after that and my feet were literally burning! I had to jump out of bed and walk around on the cold floor to cool them off. That dream seemed so real and unlike anything I had ever experienced before. Interestingly enough, when I joined the Air Force right after high school and had to shoot a gun for the first time ever, I missed qualifying as an Expert Shot by a couple points! Not to worry…I made up for it the following year!! (smile)

The general thought on reincarnation is that our current lives are influenced in one way or another by previous life experiences. Scared of heights though there’s no explanation for it? Maybe you fell to your death in a previous life! Afraid of water? Maybe you drowned in another life! I really address this very thing in my newest book No Matter What.

Another dream I had was even more amazing! I dreamed an entire LIFETIME in one night! I went through it all…birth, childhood, teenage years, young adult, marriage, children, grandchildren. In that dream I died of old age surrounded by my large loving family! As soon as I died in the dream, I woke up and I couldn’t shake those memories for quite some time. It was so bizarre! So darned REAL!

But, what really clinched the whole reincarnation belief for me was my son. He wasn’t yet two years old when he came to me one day while I was preparing dinner in the kitchen. He tugged on my pants to get my attention and I looked down at him. He had a very puzzled look on his cute little face. “What, Wes?” I ask and he cocks his head to look up at me and very seriously he asks, “Where is my wife?” Now, I didn’t even know Wes knew what a wife was! (and just so you know…he had a great vocabulary for his age!). I say to him, “What wife?” and he shakes his head in frustration because he really, truly wants to know. “My wife. You know, when I was a man and I had a wife? Where is she? I miss her!” and I tell him I don’t know where she is. He turns away all dejected and heads for the couch where he sits down to cry. I go to him and try to offer comfort. He continues to tell me about how he used to be a man and now he’s a kid but when he was a man he had a wife and he really liked her. Now, Wes often made similar comments about being “a man”. He’d say stuff like, “When I was a man, I drove a truck.” or “When I was a man, I did this” or “did that” or whatever. Because I believed in reincarnation, I did not ridicule or dismiss Wes’s comments and questions. I also was careful not to “feed” them.

I remember one afternoon while driving down a country road, Wes suddenly spoke up all excited. “Mommy! I remember this place! This is where we had the accident.” Now really, should a two-year old kid be talking like that? “What accident?” I ask. “When I was driving the car and the truck hitted us. You know, when I was a man.” and then “Where is my wife? I miss her.” He was always so sad when mentioning his wife. I wish I’d tried to look it up about there being a car accident in the area Wes identified but I didn’t.

I think the incident that bothered me the most with my son was the night I was tucking him into bed and noticed how sad he was. I asked him what was wrong. His big brown eyes looked into mine and he said, “I don’t want to die again. I don’t like that.” Then he tells me that he liked being a man and wanted to know why he had to be little again. For a two-year old, Wes was pretty obsessed with death. He hated to watch anything on TV that involved it. He would get so upset and cry and then we’d have to talk about how the stuff on TV wasn’t real and no one really died. In fact, my son talked about being a man so much and had such an obsession about death that my friends were often “weirded out” by him.

The general consensus among believers is that very young children often do remember snippets of their past lives. But as they age, the memories fade. The last time Wes talked about his past lives was when he was about four. He claimed he was a pilot in the Korean War and died getting shot down! He knew far more than a little kid should know about aerial dog fights and honestly, where would he even hear of the Korean war? I NEVER watched war stories and I certainly didn’t let Wes watch them. I think that pretty much set it in my mind.

One of the things on my Bucket List is go undergo a Past Life regression. I’d love to find out who I’ve been before. It might explain a lot about myself. In any case, it would satisfy my curiosity!

The subject has truly fascinated me since I first learned of it and I love stories that involve the concept. I first came up with the story idea for No Matter What when I was in high school. I started it but never finished it (as was the case with many book ideas). Twenty years later I found the notebook containing the partially written story on my bed and took it as a sign from the Universe to finish it! So I did. What I loved about writing that story was the fact I could explore a lot of my beliefs through the characters. Hauntings interest me…there’s a ghost. Numerology interests me…one of the main characters dabbles in it! As for the reincarnation theory…well, there are several reincarnated souls all working on current life issues that stem from their past life actions!

My hope is that when people read that story, they find some hope that nothing is hopeless! Because it isn’t. No matter what, we are all going to heaven. Eventually. After a few lives or so!! (smile)

Okay, that’s it for now. What are your thoughts? Have you had any experiences with this? I’d love to hear your stories, beliefs, arguments…whatever. Until next time! Many blessings and Peace Out!

Have a GREAT HALLOWEEN!! May it be truly SPOOKTACULAR.


On  the left you see a picture of my next book cover! Just looking at it sends chills down my spine. The story behind that cover is even more spine-tingling!

We will soon enter the glorious month of October and with that, our focus often shifts to all things supernatural, paranormal, macabre and Gothic. This story has it all. I’m pretty proud of it but more than that, it intrigues me every single time I read it. And believe me, as its author, I’ve read it about fifty times…and that’s no joke! I am constantly tweaking it, editing it, clarifying it. But soon, SOON I will be done with that process and I will send it out into the world.

The main premise of the story is based on reincarnation. I got the idea when I read about a group of people who lived in the same small town and discovered they shared a “past life” experience. This discovery was done through a particular field of hypnosis better known as “past life regression”. Through the process of hypnosis, many people are able to dredge up recollections of their past lives. This is possible because hypnosis puts the conscious mind at rest, allowing the subconscious mind to recall the memory. Because we can’t have our past lives interfering with our present one, those memories are buried in the nether regions of your memory banks. I believe those nether regions are within your very Soul…that part of you that knows all there is to know about YOU.

Many believe (as do I) that we have several layers to our individual existence. We have our physical body, our astral body (similar to the physical body but without physical substance…also called the Spirit body), and our Soul body (the true essence of who we really are). All memories of every experience we have, to include our past lives, reside within the Soul body (which resides deep within our subconscious). Another great aspect of our Soul body is that it never loses its connection to the spiritual realm. In fact, the Soul exists in the Spirit Realm and in the Physical one at the same time!

I also believe we are multi-dimensional and are much more complex than anything we can possibly imagine. Unfortunately, we are limited not only by our way of thinking and what we believe but also in what we can imagine. These limitations are placed on us by our own Ego (they CAN be overruled however…just so you know). Speaking of our Ego, it is one of the biggest obstacles we must learn to overcome in order to end our reincarnation cycle (I like to believe that we eventually move on to other activities). It is a major part of our Personality, the person we are when inhabiting a physical body. The Ego is what I consider a necessary evil. We need it to help us function  within the confines of physical existence. In order to do this…live in the physical world and not long for our life in the Spiritual Realm…we are enshrouded with an Ego at birth. During the enshrouding, we forget much of what our Soul self knows. Our personality develops from this Ego and we become who we are as we grow and learn and discover. Basically, we spend the rest of our lives dealing with a very stubborn, very restrictive Ego bondage. And quite honestly, seeking the truth will set you free from it!

Meditation is one way to calm the Ego (which strongly controls the conscious mind) and set it aside. Meditation lulls the Ego into a relaxed state (sort of like a “sleep”). With the Ego out of the way and not in control, you can gain access to your Soul body and thus the memories contained there! In fact, you can even get access to the spiritual realm. Deep prayer is also a form of meditation and that’s why it works. Prayer is focused thought (like meditation) and offers a powerful connection to our Soul which gives us access to the higher echelons of the spiritual realm where limitless power is available. For it is there…in the highest spiritual realms…where infinite power exists.

I do believe there are dark places within the spiritual realms where spirits (Astral bodies) roam in confusion and where dark (evil) intentions take root and grow. These are the lower realms of the Spiritual world and it is there where you find what we call “spirits” (people who are in their Astral body unable, for whatever reason, to move on). My belief is that when our physical body dies, our Astral body separates from it. Now, the Astral body should carry you off to wherever it is you need to go to merge with your Soul (many people probably think of this place as Heaven). BUT, sometimes people don’t move on and merge with their souls. They get stuck in the lower parts of the Spiritual Realm, and what can be really bad about this is that part of their Ego (which isn’t always good) may still be influencing them! The ones who cannot see the light of God (where our Soul resides and where the merger with it takes place) are considered lost souls (though really they are Astral bodies existing in ignorance, negativity and confusion!). Many people think these lost souls are evil. Some are not good, that’s for sure, but some of them are! This is the “place” (sphere of existence) where ghosts dwell. Many people think only evil can exist in the lower realms. But the fact remains they (the evil doers) have a Soul which exists in the higher realms. That’s what I believe anyway. God (spiritualists prefer to call “him Infinite Intelligence) does not create evil Soul bodies and since everyone has a Soul, then none of them, not a single one, are evil. So, the spirits roaming the lower Spiritual regions, they may be bad because of their Egos but that doesn’t mean they aren’t worth saving.

God, the great II (Infinite Intelligence), does not interfere with the choices we make (Free Will and all that) unless we ASK for help. Thus we get one of the greatest of all sayings, “ASK and you shall RECEIVE”. BUT (there’s always a “but” isn’t there?) the REST of that statement should be…”Through BELIEF it WILL be done!”

In my two paranormal mystery books BE STILL, MY LOVE and its sequel HIDDEN VOICES, my lead character Tess Schafer, a medium, believes that the Lord’s Prayer is quite powerful and she begins spiritual-contact scenarios (séances for instance) by saying this prayer. The real kicker about this powerful prayer is “Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven”. I mentioned earlier that infinite power resides within the higher spiritual realms (the lower realms are where Astral bodies reside until they go “to the light” and merge with their soul). The spiritual realm in this prayer is “the Kingdom”. When you ASK for something (your WILL  is being made known, “Thy Will be done”), the power of the Kingdom can then be used within the physical realm (Earth) as it is in Heaven (the Kingdom). Pretty cool, huh? I think it’s such an important message that I’ve also included it in NO MATTER WHAT. One of my main characters, Frannie, mentions it when discussing her beliefs (she’s into reincarnation and numerology among other things!).

I believe hauntings occur when a person crosses over (from physical to spiritual existence) and doesn’t “go into the light” (consciously merge with their Soul body). For whatever reason, they remain in their Astral body which is still influenced to a degree by the Ego. The thing about the Astral body is that it can interact with the Physical Realm (thus we have a haunting or contact with “the dead”, depending on the interaction taking place).

In NO MATTER WHAT, Lynn Michaels is the reincarnation of Clara Mallory. Clara haunts the Mallory Estate (where Lynn now lives and where Clara died) because her Astral body is trapped there. She is afraid to move on. Fear is one of the main issues we all must learn to conquer. Our Ego wraps fears around us in many clinging, persistent layers! Conquering fear will release us from the reincarnation cycle. We won’t have to endure life after life getting it all figured out once we do just that…figure it all out. And before you ask, NO, I don’t know what “it all” consists of. I know fear is part of it but it’s more than that. Or maybe it isn’t. See? Told you I didn’t know!

A couple of my “beta readers” (test readers who read my stories before I release them into the public forum) asked me how it was possible for Lynn to be the reincarnation of Clara if Clara still existed. Well, thats where the multi-dimensional part comes into play and the fact that the past, the present and the future actually coexist at the same time. Once something exists, it always exists and thus can be visited many times…time travel works using this premise. Psychics and Sensitives also work within this premise. Some people are born with a special ability (known as Psychic Ability) to recall events either forward or backward in time. Another important aspect of the Spiritual Realm is that there is no space…no distance. Thus, psychics and sensitives can “see” across the globe as easily as they can see right in front of their faces (this is also called Remote Viewing)!

Edgar Cayce had this ability. He was truly amazing. I think Cayce had pretty much learned what he needed to learn by the time he was born into his Edgar Cayce personality. His purpose for coming back to yet another physical life was to help others in their life journey. Every life lived should teach us something, for our Souls are on a mission to learn and experience! Some people are so committed to helping the “blind” (Ego led peeps whose minds are closed to Spiritual matters!) they come back (reincarnate) just to help them. Jesus did that. Lynn does that for herself. She comes back to help release Clara from the bonds of her fear. Is that a cool concept or what! The story just hit me in a flash one night and I tell you, I couldn’t write it down fast enough!

So, now that I’ve rambled on far more than I planned, I’ll just leave it at this for the time being. I’ll be writing more about the different aspects of the NO MATTER WHAT story as time goes on. So, what do you think of the cover? What do you think about when you see the picture? What feelings does it invoke? I really, truly want to know! So, pretty please comment and tell me. Thanks so much!!

Until next time, blessings to all and Peace Out!


I’ve been interested in the paranormal since I was a little girl. Living in a haunted house will do that to you. Weird stuff happens and once you get over the terror of it, you begin to look for understanding. Here’s the thing…I KNOW that house was haunted. Ghosts lived there with us and the older I got, the more I wanted to know WHY. After we moved out of that house, I continued to read up on things but my paranormal experiences sort of cooled off for a bit. My prophetic dreams stopped occurring and though we had a few bizarre events happen in our new house (sink faucet coming on full blast, burners on the gas stove spontaneously lighting, a blender suddenly springing into action), things were relatively quiet. I was mostly involved with reading palms at this point and studying up on how such a thing could be so darned accurate! Ever had your palms read…by a LEGITIMATE palm reader? You should. Your palm is like your personal memoir. Fascinating stuff.

So anyway, life chilled for a bit on the paranormal end but then I joined the Air Force and was sent to Korea for a year. I had to leave my infant son (my first born!) and that was tough. Let me tell you, it was rip-your-heart-0ut TOUGH. I did a lot of drinking when I first got there. Thought it would get my mind off my baby. It didn’t of course. In fact, it made things worse. Then one night I started telling some friends about my living in a haunted house and they wanted to know it all. When I got to the parts about using the Ouija board, they got the bright idea that we should do that. And so my paranormal experiences began to happen again. We had some really interesting conversations on that Ouija. Let me tell you. Now, I know people will say that it’s evil and all that and I suppose it can be. After all, the Ouija opens a door to the other side. One must be responsible when opening doors like that! Unfortunately, not many people take the necessary precautions to ensure no negative entities come through. I’ve always been careful and can proudly say that I’ve not had any negative experiences with the Ouija. It honestly is one of the EASIEST forms of spirit contact. Maybe because people treat it like a game and so they let their guards down, lower their defenses and relaxes the all-protective EGO. When you truly ALLOW spirit contact to happen…it will.

After my year in Korea was over, I reunited with my son…now 18 months old, walking, talking … doing all those things he wasn’t doing when I left him (he stayed with my parents for the year I was away for his dad went to Korea the same time as I did). Upon my return to the States, my husband and I initiated divorce proceedings (they had a saying in Korea that those stationed over there would come back single if they were married, married if they were single and if neither of those applied then they probably became alcoholics … and yes, there were a few exceptions to this rule, I wasn’t one of them).  For awhile it was just me and my son and it was wonderful to reconnect with him. I thought he was pretty fascinating. He talked very well for his age and so we could actually have conversations. One day he comes to me (he’s not yet two remember) and says, “Mommy, where is my wife? I miss her.” And so began a bizarre period of time where my son was obsessed about his life “as a man” and death. One night while tucking him into bed, he looked so very sad and I asked him what was wrong. He says, “I don’t want to die again. I don’t like it.” Can you imagine how I felt during conversations like this? He was only two. What to say? For the next three years, my son continued to talk about things that happened to him “when he was a man”.  When he was four, he started talking about his time in the military as a pilot in the Korean war! Now, I ask you…what would he know about such things? I did not watch war movies and neither did he. We were living in Germany by this time and didn’t even have television! So, because of that, I began to read up on reincarnation. The whole subject totally fascinated me and still does. I even wrote a book in which reincarnation plays a big role (No Matter What which I hope to have published in ebook by October!! Just in time for Halloween!)

My son was three when I remarried and I was pregnant with my second child when we arrived in Germany. My paranormal endeavors went on another hiatus. We came back to the States with three kids…two daughters were born while I was stationed in Germany. As it happened, I went through yet another marriage break-up (do you know how high the divorce rate is with military members!? It’s a tough life). This break-up really devastated me. My first divorce was quite friendly. We didn’t fight, we just didn’t suit as a couple. But my second one…boy, it brought me down to my lowest points. When your life is falling apart, you can cry about it (which I did in excess!) or you can try to pull yourself together and get on with it. This I did eventually do but I went through quite the spiritual reformation while doing it. I needed to know WHY things happened the way they did. I needed to understand why my life was so messed up! Divorce can really damage your sense of self-worth and totally ruin your self-esteem (not to mention the financial devastation which is another whole set of worries!). I hit a critical low period in my life and turned to God for help. I began studying about angels (they are so awesome!!) and I began to truly believe that God takes care of us if we let him. When we try to control things ourselves without God’s help, well, that’s when things go awry. Little miracles began to happen (I’ve blogged about some of it, see God, Money, Faith) My belief factor went up and things got better and better. It was during this time that I discovered Automatic Writing.

Automatic Writing is allowing spirit to speak to you through hand writing. You can also allow them to come through on the keyboard. It’s basically a form of channeling. As I didn’t have a keyboard at the time (home computers hadn’t put in an appearance much at this point), I used a notepad and a pencil. I meditated (another thing I was learning to do!) and then I started writing! Many spirits came through and brought messages that were helpful. I moved from Automatic Writing to channeling a beautiful spirit I called Sheila (yes, I use her in my book Be Still, My Love and in its sequel Hidden Voices which will be out soon!). I didn’t use a pen and paper with her, I just allowed her to speak through me. I was remarried by this time and my new husband was quite involved with this process. We were both fascinated by Sheila and the things she told us. I had some really amazing experiences with her. Now, I have to tell you that I often questioned these experiences and wondered if it were all coming from my imagination. But I also have to tell you that while Sheila was speaking, I was thinking all sorts of things…ever try to talk and say one thing while having a completely different conversation go on in your head at the same time? This happened quite a bit because I often speculated on the things Sheila shared. Half the time I missed what she was saying because I was busying trying to counter something else she’d said! (we taped every session so I wouldn’t miss out on anything). It was an eye-opening experience and all of it was getting me more and more involved in the world of the paranormal.

Then this marriage went really bad. I can’t say what happened, it’s all so very personal but I will say that I didn’t really know the man I married. Looking back on it, I don’t regret a thing, no matter how bad it got, because it has all led me to where I am now and I like where I am. I wouldn’t change it for anything. Though I wish my kids hadn’t had to go through all that crap too. Life lessons are HARD! For awhile I was mad at God and even the poor angels. I couldn’t understand  how they would let things get so bad. After all the prophetic dreams, all the channeling work, the messages from spirit…WHY did this crap have to happen? Once that marriage ended, my life began to really turn around. It’s been all up hill from there, I’m happy to report! I found the man of my dreams and he’s very understanding about my paranormal interests. He’s also very supportive of my writing and he’s been the BEST father to our kids.

They say that the third time is the charm…for me it took four. But what a CHARM it is! When I started work again on my paranormal thriller “No Matter What”, I began to get more involved with the paranormal world.  Although I had dabbled some with the Tarot cards, I didn’t really get involved with them until I started work on this story. One of my characters was a Tarot reader and I wanted to understand more about it (so my character would sound legitimate) and suddenly I became fascinated with them. They really are quite amazing. I also began to study Numerology (another thing the character in my story liked to do!). Again…the way these things work in our lives is truly amazing!!

When our military careers came to a close (my husband did 28 years and I did 20) and we retired, I figured I’d have more time to write. Not so. We got busy running a small campground which we thought would make a great retirement plan and I found myself too busy to write. But, I did continue with the Tarot cards, palm reading and Numerology studies! When we finally decided to close the campground (it’s a tough world when it comes to running your own business!!!), I found myself having more time to write. I began to edit No Matter What and then I found the Spiritualist church! When family members who have passed on into the great hereafter came through during the “messages from spirit” part of the service, I knew this was the church for me. I signed up for their mediumship class, went on ghost hunting adventures and learned about table tipping! This is yet another form of spirit contact. You simply put your hands flat on the top of a table (must be evenly proportioned…round or square) and invite spirits to come through and and talk to you by “tipping the table”. What fun we’ve had with this!! Table tipping is truly an adventure in the paranormal. We’ve gotten the table to spin, walk or slide across the floor, tip nearly to the floor (without falling!) and rock back and forth. A few times we’ve had the table tip up (usually onto two legs) and then stay there. No matter how hard we tried to get it to fall back onto its legs, we couldn’t do it! Truly…is that fascinating or what?

I’ve had tons of experiences, too many to mention, and they have all led me to the interests I now have. These interests come through in my writing. People write to me and ask me if I am Tess Schafer (the main character of Be Still, My Love) and I guess I have to say yes, to some degree. She has a lot of me in her. But she’s better! A better medium anyway. I love to make up stories. It’s natural to make up stories that involve things that interest me. The paranormal has interested me most of my life and that is why I write about it. I also love to read about it! What about you? Do you like to read about the paranormal? Why? Do you write about it? Share with us your books if you do! Share your stories or your blogs. The people who come to this blog do so because of the paranormal content (right?) so if you’ve something to share, please do!!

Until next time, blessings to all and Peace Out!


Be Still, My Love

When I was seven, my family moved into an old farmhouse.  We didn’t know it at the time, but it was quite haunted.  The tomb situated in a small copse of trees behind the house should have given us something of a warning.  The eleven people buried there had all died on the property, some of them in our house.  Disturbingly enough, there were others who had died either in the house or on the property whose bodies were not buried in the tomb.  The old house had history.  Lots of it.  And we were about to learn how bizarre the world can be, how mysterious and spooky.

For seven years we lived there and experienced some interesting phenomena (see previous posts about some of my experiences!).  My exposure to the paranormal led me to an interest in such matters and an eagerness to learn all I could.  Having a very active imagination and a compelling desire to write, it was only natural that my books would reflect my growing fascination with “the unknown”.  I’ve been scribbling stories since I was old enough to string words together.  My first story was penned on a stool (we had to make do with what we had and an extra desk was not one of them!) behind a big old piano.  My second grade teacher had pulled it away from the wall to give us some private space for our creative moments.  I couldn’t wait to get behind that piano and write.  It was the beginning of my writing career.  It became something of an obsession.  I couldn’t stand to see a blank notebook page.  I HAD to scrawl out a story.  I told myself stories constantly: while doing mundane chores, traveling, waiting for sleep to come…every idle moment was filled with stories.

As I entered my teenage years, I became determined to “grow up and be a writer”.  And I continued to learn about all sorts of things: reincarnation, past lives, spirit contact, life after death (it’s all quite connected).  It was only natural for my imagination to embrace these concepts and come up with stories including them.

Although I dreamed of being a writer, I was realistic enough to understand that an endeavor like that was not going to be easy.  And I needed to experience life.  So, a year after graduating high school, I joined the Air Force.  Suddenly I am learning all about explosives and bomb components and the like.  A total departure from my career choice for sure.  Who would have thought I’d become a Munitions Technician?  I have to say, my new career led to some very interesting experiences.  Not all of them good.  Most of them, in fact, not good.  But that’s another story.  I continued to write stories and dream of being an author but my focus was now on my Air Force commitments and my growing family.

After serving twenty long years in the military, I finally retired and was looking forward to life in the civilian world.  My husband (whose stellar career in the military lasted 28 years) and I bought ourselves a small family campground and we settled down to the demands of owning a business.  We did that for five interesting years and then called it quits.  Now, I thought, I can do what I’ve always wanted to do.  I had written some books by this point and they sat idle on my computer.  Now, finally, it was time to fire up the computer and the stories held within it!  It was around this time that I was once again exploring my spiritual interests and had recently joined a Spiritualist church.  The mediums there had me interested in their ability.  How awesome to talk to loved ones lost to us in death!  Oh, I’d done as much with the Ouija board, automatic writing and channeling but I hadn’t had much interaction with mediums.  Then, of course, the shows Medium and Ghost Whisperer were very popular and I was also following another medium’s reality show starring the talented Lisa Williams.  My interest in mediumship (I even took a class in it!) made my creative brain kick into gear and “Be Still, My Love” began to formulate.   A sucker for love stories, I wondered how a medium very much in love with her husband would feel if she lost him to a senseless death.  And because people grieve over the loss of their pets, I decided this poor medium would lose a beloved dog as well.  How would she respond?  Would her faith be affected?  Would she love again?  Would her ability be affected?  What would happen if she stayed somewhere haunted by the tragic demise of two young lovers?  Would she be able to help them?  What if more were going on than a haunting?  Would she figure it out?  All these questions created the story that came to be and led to my very first publication!!

The circumstances that led to my first published book seem unrelated and yet, each one built on the other and led to that very thing! I moved into a house haunted by several ghosts, I started to write stories, I experienced things in life that led to my drive for understanding, I attended a Spiritualist church and then I wrote a book!  A long held dream, one that began around the age of eight, took forty years to come true but come true it did!!

That book is now FREE on Amazon for the dates of 25 and 26 March!  After that, it’s still going to be affordable because I really want to share this story with you!  I’d love to know what you all think of it!  And I’d love to hear how your dreams came to be!!

And to show my appreciation for you taking the time to stop by my blog…I’m offering a FREE Numerology Analysis OR a palm reading (need the capability of taking a digital photo of your hand) to TWO lucky commenters who take the time to share their thoughts with me!!

Thank you so much for your support and for your valuable time!  Until next time, many blessings to you and Peace Out!


The Fortune Teller by Caravaggio.

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Foretelling the future has been around since humans began to master communication.  It was common belief among the masses, in the early days of mankind, that certain things gave indication of future events (red skies at night, sailor’s delight).  It was also accepted that some people had the gift for seeing into the future.  Think Nostradamus! The Oracle of Delphi! or (my favorite!) Edgar Casey.  Casey wasn’t limited to seeing future events, he was also privy to past ones and current ones happening a world away!  How cool to see life’s timeline forward and backward, space and distance irrelevant!

Somewhere along the line, as various religions became more powerful and influential, their leadership managed to put a dark mark on these ancient practices.  Countless people have been brutally murdered over the years for dabbling in “occult” activity..one of them being, of course, fortune telling.  First of all, I think the “fortune” part should have been banned, not the “telling” part.  And no…I don’t care what bible passage you quote me, I do not believe that palm reading, Tarot cards, divining rods, pendulums, runes, astrology, numerology, etc. are evil (certainly they can be used for evil…but so can God…aren’t some of the terrorists of the day conducting their heinous acts in “the name of God”?).  I don’t believe it because it was God (and again…don’t come back at me and say, “Not everyone believes in God” because I do and this is my blog and if you don’t believe in God and don’t want to read on, you are welcome to “x” out but before you do…thanks for stopping by and many blessings to you!!) … so where was I?  Oh yes, I believe that God (or whatever name you want to call this omniscient creator of all that is …the Universe, Divine Intelligence, Yahweh, etc) is the creator of every single thing in existence.  If it has a name, it exists and God created it.  God created us too, obviously, and thus our palms!  He (although I don’t think of God as a person, because obviously “he” is not, I use the pronoun here just for ease of writing) created the heavens (thus the astrological planets!), the tea leaves, the cards, the pendulum, the crystal ball, or whatever is used to evaluate/analyze a person or situation or event.  As for numbers…their creation was the inspiration of God.  If you don’t believe this…then where did all these things come from?  And how is it that they are more accurate than not?

Okay, this isn’t going to be a persuasive post on why you should believe in various forms of divination (a better word than fortune telling).  I’m way too lazy and busy at this point to look up all the various references that explain how it works and why it works and blah blah blah.  First of all, if you don’t believe in it, nothing I say is going to matter, and if you are convinced it’s evil, nothing I say is going to matter.  So, this post, essentially, is for people who do believe, might believe, are open to believing or perhaps are just plain curious.

There are several divination activities that I am actively involved in: The Tarot, Palmistry, and Numerology.  I believe in Astrology but it’s a difficult art to learn and I just haven’t the time.  I leave it to the “masters”.  I always thought Tarot cards were silly and impossible until I learned about energy and divine influence and how nothing…absolutely nothing…is by luck or chance.  I’m best at Palmistry but am pretty good with Numerology as well.  I would love to be doing more of those things but I just haven’t the time.  Recently, I was interviewed by Cege Smith on her blog (interview link) about my book “Be Still, My Love” and I offered to do a numerology analysis for a randomly chosen commenter.  I thought it would be cool to do an analysis since I haven’t done one in awhile and its good to keep my psyche “well oiled” in the process.  You know, the “use it or lose it” rule and all that.  It’s truly amazing what your numbers (those associated with your name or birth) can tell you about yourself and your life.

My favorite form of personal analysis is Palmistry.  I was 16 when I found myself in homeroom class and nothing to read.  My teacher told me to get a book from her “library” (a bookshelf in front of her desk).  I browsed the titles and saw “The Art of Palmistry” and grabbed it.  Our desks were formed in groups of six and the other five desks in my group were filled with boys.  All of whom were on the football team.  Being a very shy introvert, I was quite intimidated to be sitting with them, but when I finally found my way to homeroom class that first day of school, it was the only seat open.  So anyway, the boys wanted to see what I was reading and they immediately popped their hands out for me to read.  Mind you, I JUST picked the book up.  My mind began to spin with the possibilities this little book could give me should I learn its contents.  Perhaps I might make friends and expand my tight little hang-out group. Perhaps people (boys!) would seek me out and I could HELP them (poor lost, clueless souls that they were! lol)  Yeah, grandiose dreams, but I was a shy teenage girl who wanted to break out of that shell.  Palmistry did that for me, let me tell you!  As I began to “get it” and learn the craft a little better, I discovered that it was pretty darned accurate!  The more hands I read, the more I learned, the more I understood this thing was the REAL DEAL.

I can honestly say that I’ve read thousands and thousands of hands over the past 30 plus years (where in the HECK did all the time go?) and I have not found the palms to lie.  It isn’t so much about telling your future as it about telling you about you!  Every aspect of your hand gives a clue to the person you are, have been and could be!  The first thing I do when I meet people or see someone who catches my interest (good or bad) is look at their hands.  I don’t need to read their palms to figure things out like temperament (watch out for large bulbous thumbs!), whether they are a leader (look for long fingers, especially the “pointer” finger!), if they can pay attention to detail (small hands!), are quick to make decisions (smooth, short fingers), or if they over think stuff (long,knotted…knuckle joints are large…fingers).  You want to know something…anything about a person…their hands are going to tell…hands down (sorry, but I just couldn’t resist).

I remember when I was going through a really bad time in my life, I was looking hard at my hands, doing my numbers, having my cards read and thinking we need a therapist in the world who can do all these things.  What better way to get help overcoming adversity and heartbreak than by looking at your life’s blueprints?  I even thought about it…becoming an expert in palmistry, the Tarot and numerology and then offering myself up to counseling people as they needed it.  Honestly, I think it would benefit anyone and everyone if they could see their “life plan” as God intended it (mapped out while in our spiritual forms before descending into hell, I mean, Earth!)  I still think this is an awesome idea…I’d be there in a heartbeat!  It’s really hard to stay impartial and do a “reading” for yourself.

There are countless guideposts God put in place to help “his” children navigate through life.  Unfortunately, we’ve demonized, ignored and ridiculed a lot of them.  Pure silliness.  But, believe what you will.  We all do!!

If you ever have the chance to have your cards, palms or numbers analyzed, you should give it a try, but there’s no getting around the fact that there are a lot of phony people out there (giving these divination practices further bad rap) who don’t know what they are doing though they’ll charge you handsomely for it.  Honestly, they shouldn’t be charging a lot for their services…certainly their time is important and they should get something for it…but they shouldn’t be out to empty your bank account.  God given gifts were meant to be shared, and if a price must be put on it, that price should be an affordable and modest one!  Also, it’s best if you can get some recommendations on the person you are about to approach for an analysis.  There’s enough information “out there” these days to learn nearly anything you need to know about someone. Check the internet and see what’s being said.  Just keep in mind that people can be real mean to others, deserved or not, and other people can be too generous.  You can always go with your “gut feeling”.  It’s really true that we all know the truth about everything.  Just most of us are closed off to that all knowing part of ourselves!

Maybe someday I’ll share some of my own palm reading experiences, they are truly remarkable and why I believe in it so much.

Okay, that’s it.  I’m done for now.  Until next time, blessings to all and Peace Out!


Is the number 13 unlucky?  No.  Of course not.  Well, yes, it is.  Although, in either case, not so much in the end.  Huh? you ask.  Well, the number 13 represents change and for something to change, something must first end.  Out with the old and in with the new…that sort of thing.  Unfortunately, the ending of something can be stressful, fretful, sad, devastating or annoying.  It can also be a cause for celebration.  So, if the number 13 represents change, and we view some changes as good and some changes as bad, then the number 13 is only lucky SOME of the time.  Right?  Well….no.  I say this because I truly believe that all things turn out right in the end.  If it isn’t right, well, it’s not the end!  That’s my motto and I have to remind myself of it often for I, too, get caught up in the drama of changes that don’t seem so good.

The stigma of “unlucky 13” is a tough one to overcome.  Because of the superstition behind this magical number, hotels, motels, campgrounds, elevators, etc. all avoid it.  I say this: If you BELIEVE that the number 13 is unlucky, well, it can appear to be so.  If you BELIEVE that the number 13 is lucky, well then it will appear to be so.  (KEY word in both instances: APPEAR)  Our beliefs have a lot to do with everything but putting beliefs aside, the vibratory power of the number 13 is all about change … death, rebirth, reincarnation.  Now, as for one’s beliefs, well they help to fuel the number’s vibration…make it stronger or weaker.  BUT, beliefs do not change the essential property of the number’s vibration.  So…what the heck is a vibration?  How does a number “vibrate” you might ask?  A tough question to answer.  But I’ll give it a shot.

Every single thing in existence … seen and unseen (dreams and thoughts can’t be seen – with the physical eyes anyway – but they exist just the same!) come into existence through the energy source of God.  Or the Supreme Intelligence…or whatever you want to call it.  As I view God as representing “all that is”, I call this energy SOURCE God.  Energy is motion.  Motion means movement and movement means vibration!  Now, everything has a vibratory level.  Low level vibration (slower speeds) are considered things in our world to be of solid mass.  Things which operate at faster speeds have less “mass” to them … they aren’t quite so solid (steam for instance!).  And if something is REALLY going fast…there is no solidarity to that thing at all (sound, for example, can be heard at slower speeds but the higher pitch the sound, the faster it’s vibration, the less we can hear it!).  Thoughts exist in high frequency (high speed, high vibration).  Thus, you can’t see them with your eyes even though you are aware of them.  If something has a name or is observed … it exists.  If it exists, it has an energy source attached to it.  If it has an energy source, it has a purpose for being.  So, when I say that something has a “vibratory meaning attached to it” that’s what I’m talking about.

Numbers exist, even if that existence is abstract.  Numbers also have developed “properties” (energy influences).  Huh, you ask?  (see, I TOLD you this was going to be hard to explain!)  Energy is influenced by many things.  In our world, believe it or not, energy is influenced by human emotion!! Don’t believe me?  Ever walk into a room and notice the energy is high or low?  People are either excited or subdued.  They are sharing energy that becomes more powerful the more it is shared.  Someone with a strong personality (strong energy) can come into a room full of people who have low energy and energize that room!  That’s how riots get out of hand.  Anger is a strong energy and it can overpower less excited energy such as passivity.  People can become incited with a strong energy source near them and this can escalate into a frenzy!  People involved in an emotional event that got out of control will often say, “I don’t know what came over me! I never act like that!!”  Energy is a powerful thing.

When numbers first started coming into being … everything in our world has a beginning … their energy began to take on the properties (emotions) that was attached to their creation.  I could go on forever with this, check out Numerology books if the subject interests you!! It’s fascinating reading.  Really.  But anyway.  I read somewhere that the ancients claim that “he who understands how to use the number 13 will be given power and dominion.”  Pretty powerful statement.  But why would they believe this?  A quickie numerological view of numbers 1 and 3 and their value added together 4 (numerology deals with the properties of numbers) might help explain their thinking on this issue.  The number one: represents creativity … the originating action of all numbers (the Father of numbers…God).  The number three: Embodies the holy trinity of body, mind, and spirit.  The number four:  Represents the individualist, originality, inventiveness and tolerance.  Take the properties of one, add the properties of three and you sort of see how four comes into being!  And if you consider all these aspects…the number 13 is pretty fascinating!

As I said, 13 represents change.  Change can cause upheaval but this is necessary for new ground to be broken!  This is a powerful number.  Your attitude, beliefs and emotion will fuel the properties of the number 13 to work for or against you.  Let’s face it.  If you view something as bad, it’s going to be bad no matter what anyone says about it.  That puts a negative spin on poor misunderstood number 13.  If you view something as positive, well things are all hunky-dory aren’t they?  Choose to find the positive in change and more of the same will come to you!

Since I strongly believe in the positive properties of this number, I use the 13 whenever possible.  My husband and I, for example, were married on the 13th!  We began a new life together – what a great change for us!!!  Interestingly enough, my book was finally published on the 13th!!  I was really excited about that.  Two of my granddaughters were born on the 13th!  A blessing to be sure.

So now that I’ve got your brain pounding with confusion, I’ll let the subject rest.  My job is done. (smile)  Sharing knowledge is wonderful and the world wide web sure helps, doesn’t it?  Of course, not all things shared are good but that’s up for another discussion!!  May you experience great new beginnings of many wonderful things as the new year moves along!  May some of them get initiated on good ole Friday the 13th !!

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