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I’ve been interested in the paranormal since I was a little girl. Living in a haunted house will do that to you. Weird stuff happens and once you get over the terror of it, you begin to look for understanding. Here’s the thing…I KNOW that house was haunted. Ghosts lived there with us and the older I got, the more I wanted to know WHY. After we moved out of that house, I continued to read up on things but my paranormal experiences sort of cooled off for a bit. My prophetic dreams stopped occurring and though we had a few bizarre events happen in our new house (sink faucet coming on full blast, burners on the gas stove spontaneously lighting, a blender suddenly springing into action), things were relatively quiet. I was mostly involved with reading palms at this point and studying up on how such a thing could be so darned accurate! Ever had your palms read…by a LEGITIMATE palm reader? You should. Your palm is like your personal memoir. Fascinating stuff.

So anyway, life chilled for a bit on the paranormal end but then I joined the Air Force and was sent to Korea for a year. I had to leave my infant son (my first born!) and that was tough. Let me tell you, it was rip-your-heart-0ut TOUGH. I did a lot of drinking when I first got there. Thought it would get my mind off my baby. It didn’t of course. In fact, it made things worse. Then one night I started telling some friends about my living in a haunted house and they wanted to know it all. When I got to the parts about using the Ouija board, they got the bright idea that we should do that. And so my paranormal experiences began to happen again. We had some really interesting conversations on that Ouija. Let me tell you. Now, I know people will say that it’s evil and all that and I suppose it can be. After all, the Ouija opens a door to the other side. One must be responsible when opening doors like that! Unfortunately, not many people take the necessary precautions to ensure no negative entities come through. I’ve always been careful and can proudly say that I’ve not had any negative experiences with the Ouija. It honestly is one of the EASIEST forms of spirit contact. Maybe because people treat it like a game and so they let their guards down, lower their defenses and relaxes the all-protective EGO. When you truly ALLOW spirit contact to happen…it will.

After my year in Korea was over, I reunited with my son…now 18 months old, walking, talking … doing all those things he wasn’t doing when I left him (he stayed with my parents for the year I was away for his dad went to Korea the same time as I did). Upon my return to the States, my husband and I initiated divorce proceedings (they had a saying in Korea that those stationed over there would come back single if they were married, married if they were single and if neither of those applied then they probably became alcoholics … and yes, there were a few exceptions to this rule, I wasn’t one of them).  For awhile it was just me and my son and it was wonderful to reconnect with him. I thought he was pretty fascinating. He talked very well for his age and so we could actually have conversations. One day he comes to me (he’s not yet two remember) and says, “Mommy, where is my wife? I miss her.” And so began a bizarre period of time where my son was obsessed about his life “as a man” and death. One night while tucking him into bed, he looked so very sad and I asked him what was wrong. He says, “I don’t want to die again. I don’t like it.” Can you imagine how I felt during conversations like this? He was only two. What to say? For the next three years, my son continued to talk about things that happened to him “when he was a man”.  When he was four, he started talking about his time in the military as a pilot in the Korean war! Now, I ask you…what would he know about such things? I did not watch war movies and neither did he. We were living in Germany by this time and didn’t even have television! So, because of that, I began to read up on reincarnation. The whole subject totally fascinated me and still does. I even wrote a book in which reincarnation plays a big role (No Matter What which I hope to have published in ebook by October!! Just in time for Halloween!)

My son was three when I remarried and I was pregnant with my second child when we arrived in Germany. My paranormal endeavors went on another hiatus. We came back to the States with three kids…two daughters were born while I was stationed in Germany. As it happened, I went through yet another marriage break-up (do you know how high the divorce rate is with military members!? It’s a tough life). This break-up really devastated me. My first divorce was quite friendly. We didn’t fight, we just didn’t suit as a couple. But my second one…boy, it brought me down to my lowest points. When your life is falling apart, you can cry about it (which I did in excess!) or you can try to pull yourself together and get on with it. This I did eventually do but I went through quite the spiritual reformation while doing it. I needed to know WHY things happened the way they did. I needed to understand why my life was so messed up! Divorce can really damage your sense of self-worth and totally ruin your self-esteem (not to mention the financial devastation which is another whole set of worries!). I hit a critical low period in my life and turned to God for help. I began studying about angels (they are so awesome!!) and I began to truly believe that God takes care of us if we let him. When we try to control things ourselves without God’s help, well, that’s when things go awry. Little miracles began to happen (I’ve blogged about some of it, see God, Money, Faith) My belief factor went up and things got better and better. It was during this time that I discovered Automatic Writing.

Automatic Writing is allowing spirit to speak to you through hand writing. You can also allow them to come through on the keyboard. It’s basically a form of channeling. As I didn’t have a keyboard at the time (home computers hadn’t put in an appearance much at this point), I used a notepad and a pencil. I meditated (another thing I was learning to do!) and then I started writing! Many spirits came through and brought messages that were helpful. I moved from Automatic Writing to channeling a beautiful spirit I called Sheila (yes, I use her in my book Be Still, My Love and in its sequel Hidden Voices which will be out soon!). I didn’t use a pen and paper with her, I just allowed her to speak through me. I was remarried by this time and my new husband was quite involved with this process. We were both fascinated by Sheila and the things she told us. I had some really amazing experiences with her. Now, I have to tell you that I often questioned these experiences and wondered if it were all coming from my imagination. But I also have to tell you that while Sheila was speaking, I was thinking all sorts of things…ever try to talk and say one thing while having a completely different conversation go on in your head at the same time? This happened quite a bit because I often speculated on the things Sheila shared. Half the time I missed what she was saying because I was busying trying to counter something else she’d said! (we taped every session so I wouldn’t miss out on anything). It was an eye-opening experience and all of it was getting me more and more involved in the world of the paranormal.

Then this marriage went really bad. I can’t say what happened, it’s all so very personal but I will say that I didn’t really know the man I married. Looking back on it, I don’t regret a thing, no matter how bad it got, because it has all led me to where I am now and I like where I am. I wouldn’t change it for anything. Though I wish my kids hadn’t had to go through all that crap too. Life lessons are HARD! For awhile I was mad at God and even the poor angels. I couldn’t understand  how they would let things get so bad. After all the prophetic dreams, all the channeling work, the messages from spirit…WHY did this crap have to happen? Once that marriage ended, my life began to really turn around. It’s been all up hill from there, I’m happy to report! I found the man of my dreams and he’s very understanding about my paranormal interests. He’s also very supportive of my writing and he’s been the BEST father to our kids.

They say that the third time is the charm…for me it took four. But what a CHARM it is! When I started work again on my paranormal thriller “No Matter What”, I began to get more involved with the paranormal world.  Although I had dabbled some with the Tarot cards, I didn’t really get involved with them until I started work on this story. One of my characters was a Tarot reader and I wanted to understand more about it (so my character would sound legitimate) and suddenly I became fascinated with them. They really are quite amazing. I also began to study Numerology (another thing the character in my story liked to do!). Again…the way these things work in our lives is truly amazing!!

When our military careers came to a close (my husband did 28 years and I did 20) and we retired, I figured I’d have more time to write. Not so. We got busy running a small campground which we thought would make a great retirement plan and I found myself too busy to write. But, I did continue with the Tarot cards, palm reading and Numerology studies! When we finally decided to close the campground (it’s a tough world when it comes to running your own business!!!), I found myself having more time to write. I began to edit No Matter What and then I found the Spiritualist church! When family members who have passed on into the great hereafter came through during the “messages from spirit” part of the service, I knew this was the church for me. I signed up for their mediumship class, went on ghost hunting adventures and learned about table tipping! This is yet another form of spirit contact. You simply put your hands flat on the top of a table (must be evenly proportioned…round or square) and invite spirits to come through and and talk to you by “tipping the table”. What fun we’ve had with this!! Table tipping is truly an adventure in the paranormal. We’ve gotten the table to spin, walk or slide across the floor, tip nearly to the floor (without falling!) and rock back and forth. A few times we’ve had the table tip up (usually onto two legs) and then stay there. No matter how hard we tried to get it to fall back onto its legs, we couldn’t do it! Truly…is that fascinating or what?

I’ve had tons of experiences, too many to mention, and they have all led me to the interests I now have. These interests come through in my writing. People write to me and ask me if I am Tess Schafer (the main character of Be Still, My Love) and I guess I have to say yes, to some degree. She has a lot of me in her. But she’s better! A better medium anyway. I love to make up stories. It’s natural to make up stories that involve things that interest me. The paranormal has interested me most of my life and that is why I write about it. I also love to read about it! What about you? Do you like to read about the paranormal? Why? Do you write about it? Share with us your books if you do! Share your stories or your blogs. The people who come to this blog do so because of the paranormal content (right?) so if you’ve something to share, please do!!

Until next time, blessings to all and Peace Out!


The Fortune Teller by Caravaggio.

Image via Wikipedia

Foretelling the future has been around since humans began to master communication.  It was common belief among the masses, in the early days of mankind, that certain things gave indication of future events (red skies at night, sailor’s delight).  It was also accepted that some people had the gift for seeing into the future.  Think Nostradamus! The Oracle of Delphi! or (my favorite!) Edgar Casey.  Casey wasn’t limited to seeing future events, he was also privy to past ones and current ones happening a world away!  How cool to see life’s timeline forward and backward, space and distance irrelevant!

Somewhere along the line, as various religions became more powerful and influential, their leadership managed to put a dark mark on these ancient practices.  Countless people have been brutally murdered over the years for dabbling in “occult” activity..one of them being, of course, fortune telling.  First of all, I think the “fortune” part should have been banned, not the “telling” part.  And no…I don’t care what bible passage you quote me, I do not believe that palm reading, Tarot cards, divining rods, pendulums, runes, astrology, numerology, etc. are evil (certainly they can be used for evil…but so can God…aren’t some of the terrorists of the day conducting their heinous acts in “the name of God”?).  I don’t believe it because it was God (and again…don’t come back at me and say, “Not everyone believes in God” because I do and this is my blog and if you don’t believe in God and don’t want to read on, you are welcome to “x” out but before you do…thanks for stopping by and many blessings to you!!) … so where was I?  Oh yes, I believe that God (or whatever name you want to call this omniscient creator of all that is …the Universe, Divine Intelligence, Yahweh, etc) is the creator of every single thing in existence.  If it has a name, it exists and God created it.  God created us too, obviously, and thus our palms!  He (although I don’t think of God as a person, because obviously “he” is not, I use the pronoun here just for ease of writing) created the heavens (thus the astrological planets!), the tea leaves, the cards, the pendulum, the crystal ball, or whatever is used to evaluate/analyze a person or situation or event.  As for numbers…their creation was the inspiration of God.  If you don’t believe this…then where did all these things come from?  And how is it that they are more accurate than not?

Okay, this isn’t going to be a persuasive post on why you should believe in various forms of divination (a better word than fortune telling).  I’m way too lazy and busy at this point to look up all the various references that explain how it works and why it works and blah blah blah.  First of all, if you don’t believe in it, nothing I say is going to matter, and if you are convinced it’s evil, nothing I say is going to matter.  So, this post, essentially, is for people who do believe, might believe, are open to believing or perhaps are just plain curious.

There are several divination activities that I am actively involved in: The Tarot, Palmistry, and Numerology.  I believe in Astrology but it’s a difficult art to learn and I just haven’t the time.  I leave it to the “masters”.  I always thought Tarot cards were silly and impossible until I learned about energy and divine influence and how nothing…absolutely nothing…is by luck or chance.  I’m best at Palmistry but am pretty good with Numerology as well.  I would love to be doing more of those things but I just haven’t the time.  Recently, I was interviewed by Cege Smith on her blog (interview link) about my book “Be Still, My Love” and I offered to do a numerology analysis for a randomly chosen commenter.  I thought it would be cool to do an analysis since I haven’t done one in awhile and its good to keep my psyche “well oiled” in the process.  You know, the “use it or lose it” rule and all that.  It’s truly amazing what your numbers (those associated with your name or birth) can tell you about yourself and your life.

My favorite form of personal analysis is Palmistry.  I was 16 when I found myself in homeroom class and nothing to read.  My teacher told me to get a book from her “library” (a bookshelf in front of her desk).  I browsed the titles and saw “The Art of Palmistry” and grabbed it.  Our desks were formed in groups of six and the other five desks in my group were filled with boys.  All of whom were on the football team.  Being a very shy introvert, I was quite intimidated to be sitting with them, but when I finally found my way to homeroom class that first day of school, it was the only seat open.  So anyway, the boys wanted to see what I was reading and they immediately popped their hands out for me to read.  Mind you, I JUST picked the book up.  My mind began to spin with the possibilities this little book could give me should I learn its contents.  Perhaps I might make friends and expand my tight little hang-out group. Perhaps people (boys!) would seek me out and I could HELP them (poor lost, clueless souls that they were! lol)  Yeah, grandiose dreams, but I was a shy teenage girl who wanted to break out of that shell.  Palmistry did that for me, let me tell you!  As I began to “get it” and learn the craft a little better, I discovered that it was pretty darned accurate!  The more hands I read, the more I learned, the more I understood this thing was the REAL DEAL.

I can honestly say that I’ve read thousands and thousands of hands over the past 30 plus years (where in the HECK did all the time go?) and I have not found the palms to lie.  It isn’t so much about telling your future as it about telling you about you!  Every aspect of your hand gives a clue to the person you are, have been and could be!  The first thing I do when I meet people or see someone who catches my interest (good or bad) is look at their hands.  I don’t need to read their palms to figure things out like temperament (watch out for large bulbous thumbs!), whether they are a leader (look for long fingers, especially the “pointer” finger!), if they can pay attention to detail (small hands!), are quick to make decisions (smooth, short fingers), or if they over think stuff (long,knotted…knuckle joints are large…fingers).  You want to know something…anything about a person…their hands are going to tell…hands down (sorry, but I just couldn’t resist).

I remember when I was going through a really bad time in my life, I was looking hard at my hands, doing my numbers, having my cards read and thinking we need a therapist in the world who can do all these things.  What better way to get help overcoming adversity and heartbreak than by looking at your life’s blueprints?  I even thought about it…becoming an expert in palmistry, the Tarot and numerology and then offering myself up to counseling people as they needed it.  Honestly, I think it would benefit anyone and everyone if they could see their “life plan” as God intended it (mapped out while in our spiritual forms before descending into hell, I mean, Earth!)  I still think this is an awesome idea…I’d be there in a heartbeat!  It’s really hard to stay impartial and do a “reading” for yourself.

There are countless guideposts God put in place to help “his” children navigate through life.  Unfortunately, we’ve demonized, ignored and ridiculed a lot of them.  Pure silliness.  But, believe what you will.  We all do!!

If you ever have the chance to have your cards, palms or numbers analyzed, you should give it a try, but there’s no getting around the fact that there are a lot of phony people out there (giving these divination practices further bad rap) who don’t know what they are doing though they’ll charge you handsomely for it.  Honestly, they shouldn’t be charging a lot for their services…certainly their time is important and they should get something for it…but they shouldn’t be out to empty your bank account.  God given gifts were meant to be shared, and if a price must be put on it, that price should be an affordable and modest one!  Also, it’s best if you can get some recommendations on the person you are about to approach for an analysis.  There’s enough information “out there” these days to learn nearly anything you need to know about someone. Check the internet and see what’s being said.  Just keep in mind that people can be real mean to others, deserved or not, and other people can be too generous.  You can always go with your “gut feeling”.  It’s really true that we all know the truth about everything.  Just most of us are closed off to that all knowing part of ourselves!

Maybe someday I’ll share some of my own palm reading experiences, they are truly remarkable and why I believe in it so much.

Okay, that’s it.  I’m done for now.  Until next time, blessings to all and Peace Out!


Is the number 13 unlucky?  No.  Of course not.  Well, yes, it is.  Although, in either case, not so much in the end.  Huh? you ask.  Well, the number 13 represents change and for something to change, something must first end.  Out with the old and in with the new…that sort of thing.  Unfortunately, the ending of something can be stressful, fretful, sad, devastating or annoying.  It can also be a cause for celebration.  So, if the number 13 represents change, and we view some changes as good and some changes as bad, then the number 13 is only lucky SOME of the time.  Right?  Well….no.  I say this because I truly believe that all things turn out right in the end.  If it isn’t right, well, it’s not the end!  That’s my motto and I have to remind myself of it often for I, too, get caught up in the drama of changes that don’t seem so good.

The stigma of “unlucky 13” is a tough one to overcome.  Because of the superstition behind this magical number, hotels, motels, campgrounds, elevators, etc. all avoid it.  I say this: If you BELIEVE that the number 13 is unlucky, well, it can appear to be so.  If you BELIEVE that the number 13 is lucky, well then it will appear to be so.  (KEY word in both instances: APPEAR)  Our beliefs have a lot to do with everything but putting beliefs aside, the vibratory power of the number 13 is all about change … death, rebirth, reincarnation.  Now, as for one’s beliefs, well they help to fuel the number’s vibration…make it stronger or weaker.  BUT, beliefs do not change the essential property of the number’s vibration.  So…what the heck is a vibration?  How does a number “vibrate” you might ask?  A tough question to answer.  But I’ll give it a shot.

Every single thing in existence … seen and unseen (dreams and thoughts can’t be seen – with the physical eyes anyway – but they exist just the same!) come into existence through the energy source of God.  Or the Supreme Intelligence…or whatever you want to call it.  As I view God as representing “all that is”, I call this energy SOURCE God.  Energy is motion.  Motion means movement and movement means vibration!  Now, everything has a vibratory level.  Low level vibration (slower speeds) are considered things in our world to be of solid mass.  Things which operate at faster speeds have less “mass” to them … they aren’t quite so solid (steam for instance!).  And if something is REALLY going fast…there is no solidarity to that thing at all (sound, for example, can be heard at slower speeds but the higher pitch the sound, the faster it’s vibration, the less we can hear it!).  Thoughts exist in high frequency (high speed, high vibration).  Thus, you can’t see them with your eyes even though you are aware of them.  If something has a name or is observed … it exists.  If it exists, it has an energy source attached to it.  If it has an energy source, it has a purpose for being.  So, when I say that something has a “vibratory meaning attached to it” that’s what I’m talking about.

Numbers exist, even if that existence is abstract.  Numbers also have developed “properties” (energy influences).  Huh, you ask?  (see, I TOLD you this was going to be hard to explain!)  Energy is influenced by many things.  In our world, believe it or not, energy is influenced by human emotion!! Don’t believe me?  Ever walk into a room and notice the energy is high or low?  People are either excited or subdued.  They are sharing energy that becomes more powerful the more it is shared.  Someone with a strong personality (strong energy) can come into a room full of people who have low energy and energize that room!  That’s how riots get out of hand.  Anger is a strong energy and it can overpower less excited energy such as passivity.  People can become incited with a strong energy source near them and this can escalate into a frenzy!  People involved in an emotional event that got out of control will often say, “I don’t know what came over me! I never act like that!!”  Energy is a powerful thing.

When numbers first started coming into being … everything in our world has a beginning … their energy began to take on the properties (emotions) that was attached to their creation.  I could go on forever with this, check out Numerology books if the subject interests you!! It’s fascinating reading.  Really.  But anyway.  I read somewhere that the ancients claim that “he who understands how to use the number 13 will be given power and dominion.”  Pretty powerful statement.  But why would they believe this?  A quickie numerological view of numbers 1 and 3 and their value added together 4 (numerology deals with the properties of numbers) might help explain their thinking on this issue.  The number one: represents creativity … the originating action of all numbers (the Father of numbers…God).  The number three: Embodies the holy trinity of body, mind, and spirit.  The number four:  Represents the individualist, originality, inventiveness and tolerance.  Take the properties of one, add the properties of three and you sort of see how four comes into being!  And if you consider all these aspects…the number 13 is pretty fascinating!

As I said, 13 represents change.  Change can cause upheaval but this is necessary for new ground to be broken!  This is a powerful number.  Your attitude, beliefs and emotion will fuel the properties of the number 13 to work for or against you.  Let’s face it.  If you view something as bad, it’s going to be bad no matter what anyone says about it.  That puts a negative spin on poor misunderstood number 13.  If you view something as positive, well things are all hunky-dory aren’t they?  Choose to find the positive in change and more of the same will come to you!

Since I strongly believe in the positive properties of this number, I use the 13 whenever possible.  My husband and I, for example, were married on the 13th!  We began a new life together – what a great change for us!!!  Interestingly enough, my book was finally published on the 13th!!  I was really excited about that.  Two of my granddaughters were born on the 13th!  A blessing to be sure.

So now that I’ve got your brain pounding with confusion, I’ll let the subject rest.  My job is done. (smile)  Sharing knowledge is wonderful and the world wide web sure helps, doesn’t it?  Of course, not all things shared are good but that’s up for another discussion!!  May you experience great new beginnings of many wonderful things as the new year moves along!  May some of them get initiated on good ole Friday the 13th !!

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