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I’ve been interested in the paranormal since I was a little girl. Living in a haunted house will do that to you. Weird stuff happens and once you get over the terror of it, you begin to look for understanding. Here’s the thing…I KNOW that house was haunted. Ghosts lived there with us and the older I got, the more I wanted to know WHY. After we moved out of that house, I continued to read up on things but my paranormal experiences sort of cooled off for a bit. My prophetic dreams stopped occurring and though we had a few bizarre events happen in our new house (sink faucet coming on full blast, burners on the gas stove spontaneously lighting, a blender suddenly springing into action), things were relatively quiet. I was mostly involved with reading palms at this point and studying up on how such a thing could be so darned accurate! Ever had your palms read…by a LEGITIMATE palm reader? You should. Your palm is like your personal memoir. Fascinating stuff.

So anyway, life chilled for a bit on the paranormal end but then I joined the Air Force and was sent to Korea for a year. I had to leave my infant son (my first born!) and that was tough. Let me tell you, it was rip-your-heart-0ut TOUGH. I did a lot of drinking when I first got there. Thought it would get my mind off my baby. It didn’t of course. In fact, it made things worse. Then one night I started telling some friends about my living in a haunted house and they wanted to know it all. When I got to the parts about using the Ouija board, they got the bright idea that we should do that. And so my paranormal experiences began to happen again. We had some really interesting conversations on that Ouija. Let me tell you. Now, I know people will say that it’s evil and all that and I suppose it can be. After all, the Ouija opens a door to the other side. One must be responsible when opening doors like that! Unfortunately, not many people take the necessary precautions to ensure no negative entities come through. I’ve always been careful and can proudly say that I’ve not had any negative experiences with the Ouija. It honestly is one of the EASIEST forms of spirit contact. Maybe because people treat it like a game and so they let their guards down, lower their defenses and relaxes the all-protective EGO. When you truly ALLOW spirit contact to happen…it will.

After my year in Korea was over, I reunited with my son…now 18 months old, walking, talking … doing all those things he wasn’t doing when I left him (he stayed with my parents for the year I was away for his dad went to Korea the same time as I did). Upon my return to the States, my husband and I initiated divorce proceedings (they had a saying in Korea that those stationed over there would come back single if they were married, married if they were single and if neither of those applied then they probably became alcoholics … and yes, there were a few exceptions to this rule, I wasn’t one of them).  For awhile it was just me and my son and it was wonderful to reconnect with him. I thought he was pretty fascinating. He talked very well for his age and so we could actually have conversations. One day he comes to me (he’s not yet two remember) and says, “Mommy, where is my wife? I miss her.” And so began a bizarre period of time where my son was obsessed about his life “as a man” and death. One night while tucking him into bed, he looked so very sad and I asked him what was wrong. He says, “I don’t want to die again. I don’t like it.” Can you imagine how I felt during conversations like this? He was only two. What to say? For the next three years, my son continued to talk about things that happened to him “when he was a man”.  When he was four, he started talking about his time in the military as a pilot in the Korean war! Now, I ask you…what would he know about such things? I did not watch war movies and neither did he. We were living in Germany by this time and didn’t even have television! So, because of that, I began to read up on reincarnation. The whole subject totally fascinated me and still does. I even wrote a book in which reincarnation plays a big role (No Matter What which I hope to have published in ebook by October!! Just in time for Halloween!)

My son was three when I remarried and I was pregnant with my second child when we arrived in Germany. My paranormal endeavors went on another hiatus. We came back to the States with three kids…two daughters were born while I was stationed in Germany. As it happened, I went through yet another marriage break-up (do you know how high the divorce rate is with military members!? It’s a tough life). This break-up really devastated me. My first divorce was quite friendly. We didn’t fight, we just didn’t suit as a couple. But my second one…boy, it brought me down to my lowest points. When your life is falling apart, you can cry about it (which I did in excess!) or you can try to pull yourself together and get on with it. This I did eventually do but I went through quite the spiritual reformation while doing it. I needed to know WHY things happened the way they did. I needed to understand why my life was so messed up! Divorce can really damage your sense of self-worth and totally ruin your self-esteem (not to mention the financial devastation which is another whole set of worries!). I hit a critical low period in my life and turned to God for help. I began studying about angels (they are so awesome!!) and I began to truly believe that God takes care of us if we let him. When we try to control things ourselves without God’s help, well, that’s when things go awry. Little miracles began to happen (I’ve blogged about some of it, see God, Money, Faith) My belief factor went up and things got better and better. It was during this time that I discovered Automatic Writing.

Automatic Writing is allowing spirit to speak to you through hand writing. You can also allow them to come through on the keyboard. It’s basically a form of channeling. As I didn’t have a keyboard at the time (home computers hadn’t put in an appearance much at this point), I used a notepad and a pencil. I meditated (another thing I was learning to do!) and then I started writing! Many spirits came through and brought messages that were helpful. I moved from Automatic Writing to channeling a beautiful spirit I called Sheila (yes, I use her in my book Be Still, My Love and in its sequel Hidden Voices which will be out soon!). I didn’t use a pen and paper with her, I just allowed her to speak through me. I was remarried by this time and my new husband was quite involved with this process. We were both fascinated by Sheila and the things she told us. I had some really amazing experiences with her. Now, I have to tell you that I often questioned these experiences and wondered if it were all coming from my imagination. But I also have to tell you that while Sheila was speaking, I was thinking all sorts of things…ever try to talk and say one thing while having a completely different conversation go on in your head at the same time? This happened quite a bit because I often speculated on the things Sheila shared. Half the time I missed what she was saying because I was busying trying to counter something else she’d said! (we taped every session so I wouldn’t miss out on anything). It was an eye-opening experience and all of it was getting me more and more involved in the world of the paranormal.

Then this marriage went really bad. I can’t say what happened, it’s all so very personal but I will say that I didn’t really know the man I married. Looking back on it, I don’t regret a thing, no matter how bad it got, because it has all led me to where I am now and I like where I am. I wouldn’t change it for anything. Though I wish my kids hadn’t had to go through all that crap too. Life lessons are HARD! For awhile I was mad at God and even the poor angels. I couldn’t understand  how they would let things get so bad. After all the prophetic dreams, all the channeling work, the messages from spirit…WHY did this crap have to happen? Once that marriage ended, my life began to really turn around. It’s been all up hill from there, I’m happy to report! I found the man of my dreams and he’s very understanding about my paranormal interests. He’s also very supportive of my writing and he’s been the BEST father to our kids.

They say that the third time is the charm…for me it took four. But what a CHARM it is! When I started work again on my paranormal thriller “No Matter What”, I began to get more involved with the paranormal world.  Although I had dabbled some with the Tarot cards, I didn’t really get involved with them until I started work on this story. One of my characters was a Tarot reader and I wanted to understand more about it (so my character would sound legitimate) and suddenly I became fascinated with them. They really are quite amazing. I also began to study Numerology (another thing the character in my story liked to do!). Again…the way these things work in our lives is truly amazing!!

When our military careers came to a close (my husband did 28 years and I did 20) and we retired, I figured I’d have more time to write. Not so. We got busy running a small campground which we thought would make a great retirement plan and I found myself too busy to write. But, I did continue with the Tarot cards, palm reading and Numerology studies! When we finally decided to close the campground (it’s a tough world when it comes to running your own business!!!), I found myself having more time to write. I began to edit No Matter What and then I found the Spiritualist church! When family members who have passed on into the great hereafter came through during the “messages from spirit” part of the service, I knew this was the church for me. I signed up for their mediumship class, went on ghost hunting adventures and learned about table tipping! This is yet another form of spirit contact. You simply put your hands flat on the top of a table (must be evenly proportioned…round or square) and invite spirits to come through and and talk to you by “tipping the table”. What fun we’ve had with this!! Table tipping is truly an adventure in the paranormal. We’ve gotten the table to spin, walk or slide across the floor, tip nearly to the floor (without falling!) and rock back and forth. A few times we’ve had the table tip up (usually onto two legs) and then stay there. No matter how hard we tried to get it to fall back onto its legs, we couldn’t do it! Truly…is that fascinating or what?

I’ve had tons of experiences, too many to mention, and they have all led me to the interests I now have. These interests come through in my writing. People write to me and ask me if I am Tess Schafer (the main character of Be Still, My Love) and I guess I have to say yes, to some degree. She has a lot of me in her. But she’s better! A better medium anyway. I love to make up stories. It’s natural to make up stories that involve things that interest me. The paranormal has interested me most of my life and that is why I write about it. I also love to read about it! What about you? Do you like to read about the paranormal? Why? Do you write about it? Share with us your books if you do! Share your stories or your blogs. The people who come to this blog do so because of the paranormal content (right?) so if you’ve something to share, please do!!

Until next time, blessings to all and Peace Out!


Is there "free will" in heaven? What...

Cover of "What the Bleep Do We Know!?"

If life operates under the concept of Fate, the idea that everything is predestined, then Free Will, the idea that we determine our own destiny, couldn’t possibly apply.  Right?  I think not! I truly believe that BOTH concepts play a significant role!  Let me explain.

I’ve pondered this for quite some time because of my belief in palmistry.  If our lives are “written in the palms of our hands” then what does it matter what we do?  Right?  Wrong!  The lines in our palms actually change as we change.  BUT, and that’s a big “but”, we often don’t change all that much.  Thus, the changes in your lines won’t be very noticeable to you…if you even notice such things.  We are, it seems, creatures of habit, stuck in our ways and stubborn as all get out to accept or undergo “change”.  We are probably designed that way for a reason…to make our lives challenging and difficult! As much as I dislike experiencing trying times, isn’t that when we seem to learn the most?  People who make it successfully through adversity often come out of it much better off than they were before!

But I digress.  I believe in palmistry and the fact that the lines in our hands indicate events that have happened and those that could happen.  Though, really, palmistry is more about learning who you are than anything.  Honestly, it’s quite an in-depth “manual” of the self!  So, if the lines in our palms indicate certain future events, are they then “fated” to happen or can they be changed through the use of “free will”?  It’s an interesting question and, as I stated at the beginning of this post, I believe both factor into the answer.  We can take what we know MIGHT happen and make choices to bring them about (if that’s what we want) OR we can make choices that will avert them from occurring (if that’s preferable).  You see?  We can go with “the plan” as it is now “predetermined” (fated) or we can change the destination through the use of Free Will.

I think this is how psychics operate.  When they give you a “reading”, they are plugged into the current course your life is on and thus, they can tell you what’s in your (probable) future based on that particular course.  HOWEVER, if you don’t like the direction you are going…CHANGE it!  Make decisions and choices that take you in the direction you do WANT to go.  It’s that simple.  Really.  Truly, hard as it may be to believe, life is simple.  For some odd reason, we make it much more difficult than it is!  I wonder why?  The scary part of divination is the fact that some people will accept their “fate” (thus LETTING the current course play out) even if it’s not what they want because they THINK they have no choice in the matter.  Nothing, folks, is written in stone.  Well, okay…one thing is pretty much a given for all…death.  Physical death anyway.  Our spirit (soul), the part of our self that lives eternally, simply returns to its true state of being…a state, I might add that is more “real” than the illusionary life we are now experiencing!  Life, for all it’s significance, is but a blip of time in the course of our existence.

I watch this show called “Fringe” and there are these bald headed guys on there, I think they are called “the observers”, who seem to know everything.  On one episode, an “observer” dude spoke with Olivia (a main character on the show) and told her that he had seen “every possible future” concerning her, and that statement made my mind buzz with thought.  I have watched “What the Bleep” many, many times (it’s an awesome, intriguing, thought-provoking movie and I highly recommend it!) and it basically is telling us that every possible thing that COULD happen, HAS done so!  We live in a world of parallel universes where all possible outcomes to every possible thing IS happening “at once” (this being possible because time…past, present and future…are occurring simultaneously).  I know, I know…it’s all quite confusing, a jumbled mess, but that’s because “the truth of all” is way beyond our human comprehension.  The brains we operate under can only handle just so much!  Things must make logical sense to us or we are not going to accept it.  It’s for that very reason that meditation is so important!  Our brains go to “sleep” during meditative states and our spirit comes forth front and center!  Now, when operating within our spiritual self, everything can suddenly make sense and be crystal clear to us.  This is because our soul-self can grasp what our logical brain cannot.  But, I don’t want to dis our brains because we sort of need them to live in this physical world of ours.  And honestly, it isn’t our brain causing the confusion or making things difficult…it’s our Ego, the part of our personality under which we are who we are, that is doing that.  Difficult as our Egos may be, we need them to be that way in order to stay grounded in life.  Otherwise, we’d zip off into spirit and forgo earthly hardships.  I mean, really.  Why go through this if we don’t have to?  If we truly understood “the other side” then we wouldn’t be hanging around here!  The fact of it is, we came here (into physical life) for a reason and the only way to accomplish that mission is to bury our spiritual self deep within our subconscious, undergo a sort of amnesia concerning our “true” identity, and operate within the confines of our Ego.

I had what I consider a profound dream one night (dreams are our connection to the spiritual side of our existence and to our soul).  I dreamed I was on “the other side” preparing for Earthly life (physical birth) and having a last minute discussion with my angel friends.  I told them that I was determined not to forget them and my true identity.  They told me that once I entered the earth plane (physical existence), I wouldn’t be able to help myself.  Our memories of truth fade into obscurity because that’s how it has to be.  “No,” I told them.  “I’m not going to let that happen this time!”  So I climb this spiral staircase (symbolic of my “birth” into earthly life) and I continuously look down at my angel friends as I climb higher and higher (an interesting perspective considering we think of ourselves as coming “down” from heaven).  Finally I reach the top and have to step off the staircase onto “earth” which is a flat plane that stretches as far as I can see…getting darker and darker as it goes.  I reluctantly leave the staircase and light shining from below and begin my journey through life.  As I do so, however, I periodically look back toward the staircase (and the only source of light I might add!)  The further I go, the less I can see of that light and the darker it gets.  As I move along, I pass different scenes (which I think represent events or periods of time in my life).  Some are good, some bad and after each one (especially the bad ones!) I glance back at that staircase to remind myself of its existence and its truth.  “So far, so good,” I think to myself as I continue on.  I’m pretty proud of the fact that I haven’t forgotten!  But then as I go deeper into the dark, I am afraid to turn around because I don’t trust having that darkness and what might lurk within it at my back!  Finally, however, I glance behind me…I don’t see the staircase anymore or the light shining from below it.  And as I look, I am wondering what it is I am looking for!  I woke up immediately after that feeling quite disturbed.  That’s how life seems to work.  We get so deep into the darkness of adversity that we can no longer see the light and once we lose sight of that connection, we no longer remember who we truly are!  But you know…it’s still there!  I just need to keep reminding myself about that.

I mentioned that there is only one final destination that we all must face and that is physical death.  But is it “fated” WHEN that is to occur?  I hear all the time “when it’s your time to go, you’ve got to go” and I wonder about that statement.  Who determines when it is time?  Do we determine that or God?  Well, here again, I believe that both concepts of Fate and Free Will apply.  We can either accept our “fate” and let death happen OR we can decide to hang around a little longer!  In the end, I truly believe it’s up to us.  This is why we all hear stories of how people defied death against all odds or why death occurred when it wouldn’t seem likely that such a thing could happen.  Life is a mystery.  I love a good mystery.  Don’t you?

So, what are your thoughts on the matter?  Care to share them with me?  We are all spiritual beings capable of bringing forth interesting thoughts and ideas…one of the best things you can do is share them!  It matters not if people agree or disagree.  It’s the discussion that arises that makes it worthwhile!  We do love our discussions don’t we?  They may get heated and spark controversy but that’s what helps us figure things out!  Its those controversies, discussions and ideas that help us define who we are and what we believe.  I can tell you this much…when I hear something I either agree with or not…it helps me understand who I am and what I stand for!  The fact of it is, we are all where we are based on what we’ve come to know, like it or not.  The awesome thing about this is that if you don’t like it, you can certainly CHANGE it!  And that, my friends, is our reason for being here, our “soul” purpose for living!!

Until next time, blessings to all and Peace Out!


English: Chart of the Hand.

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A few days ago I published a blog post about Fortune Telling.  I’ve never particularly liked that term, however, so henceforth I shall refer to such crafts as Divination.  Why?  Because we are divine beings and our lives are divine productions.  That does not, however, mean that everything we intended to happen to us once we entered earthly existence is destined to occur.  Life is nothing if not a chance to experience infinite possibilities.  I think we all have a “life plan” (mapped out before birth) when we arrive into the earth plane and begin our “incarnation” (such an appropriate word here…more encompassing than “life”), but I also believe those plans often change as life commences.  It happens when you plan a trip as well.  Things happen: you change your mind, you add a side-trip, you feel compelled to try something, delete something or explore something.  Every decision you make changes the course of your life.  Every single one…no matter how big or small the decision.  Some of those decisions were probably destined to occur, but not all.  I think, in order to try and stay on course with our life plan, we placed ourselves in situations that would lead us along the road we hoped to travel.  I just can’t see how we were a random mix of genes and born without purpose.  God, surely, is infinitely more intelligent than to create us without some divine reason or care for our continued existence?  So anyway, we placed within ourselves certain tendencies…likes, dislikes, curiosities, talents, temperament…the list is endless, but basically it entails every aspect of the person we are and become.  This is why astrology works.  Our birth date and time were no accident or chance event.  To ensure we had some of the tendencies related to particular astrological influence (astrology being a needed aspect of life designed to help us stay on course), our birth was certainly a most divine occurrence, meant to happen at that precise moment that it did!

Now, this divine plan of ours to experience life for whatever reason we chose to enter it, was all placed there in our hands.  It is, in all respects, our life map.  Now, as I said earlier, decisions we make changes our plan to a degree (we have Free Will after all to follow the plan or not, though I don’t think any of us stray far).  Maybe we thought we could handle a heap of negative crap in our life (for whatever strange reason we felt we needed to experience such things) but now that we are actually living it…not so much.  So, we decide we’ve had enough abuse and make decisions that lead us from a situation we no longer desire to experience.  But…you know what?  We learned something important when we made that decision!  We learned that we can decide to change our life and then make it happen.  Maybe that was the plan all along?  Maybe that was something we needed to learn?  Or maybe not.  One way to find out is to look at our hands!

When I do a reading, I look at both hands.  I always ask if the person is left-handed or right-handed because the dominant hand is the hand that is guiding the life being led.  The non-dominant hand shows the life you INTENDED to lead.  Now, if you look at your palms, you should notice that the lines are quite different in each of them.  That shows how differently things are going now, from what you expected would happen when you were first born.  If the lines in your hands are similar, then you are following your life plan quite closely (a rarity, let me tell you, and I’ve read countless thousands of hands).  Now, sometimes it’s a great thing to not be following the life plan because I think as Spiritual Beings we are all gung ho about entering life and experiencing “it all”.  But lets face it, life is hard…and a lot of the difficulties we encounter have to do with our emotions.  For example, what if you hoped to be a great hunter when you were born but a tendency to care for innocent creatures tugged at your heart every time you killed an animal until finally you couldn’t do it anymore?

Now, if you want to just “wing it” through life (most of us do!), then don’t worry about what your hands have to tell you.  But, if you are curious as to what you expected to experience in life, then go have your hands read!  I said in my last post that I’d share some palm reading experiences with you, just a couple or so that stand out for me, and I will.

I have always found it most interesting that the number one thing everyone wants to know when they first stick their hand out is this…when are they going to get married? Or, if they are married already, how many kids are they going to have? (here I’ll admit that I’m not very good in that department…it’s very hard to interpret the children lines).  The next thing absolutely everyone wants to know (probably because I don’t know any super wealthy people) is if they are ever going to get rich?  As for that answer…well, it’s all in how you look at it.  I told someone once that I saw that they were going to come into a pretty considerable sum of money though I couldn’t say how much.  They won a law suit and though I don’t know how much they got, they bought a lot of expensive things and went on lots of trips and lived quite well for awhile.  They spent all the money and then came back to me and wanted to know when they were going to get this large sum of money!! True story.

The one thing everyone is fearful of learning is how long they are going to live.  Not that I’m going to answer that.  Not exactly.  Everyone has the potential to live very long lives…it’s up to you in the end…really.  God is not going to snatch you away without your consent (Free Will!) and though many of you will argue that is most certainly not true, I beg to differ.  The thing is…”death” is looked upon quite differently to our Soul Self than it is to the person we are in physical life.  So, when a time arrives in our lives where death might occur…our Soul is probably all for it while our present personality (the conscious being that we are in physical life) isn’t quite so persuaded.  As much as we might want to return to our spiritual “life”, our Soul Self knows if it’s time to let go of physical life or if we should stay a bit longer.  WE make the decision…not God.  This is probably very hard for many to accept and I understand that.  Certainly you may not agree and I accept that as well.  Our beliefs are a product of experiences thus far.  This is what I believe anyway, right or wrong.  Who really knows?  We’ll learn the truth when death to the body finally occurs.  What I find interesting is that one hand will sometimes show an earlier death than the other.  This is because of life choices made.  Maybe you were destined for lung cancer but quit smoking and ended up living longer?  In this scenario, one hand will show that you initially figured you’d smoke yourself to death for whatever reason and the other hand will show that you no longer thought this a good plan and stopped.  Lines change.  Hand readings need to be updated every few years because our lives often change.  Why?  Because many of us “live and learn” and adjust our decisions and beliefs accordingly.

When I first started reading palms, I really thought of it as nothing more than a fun activity to do.  Like playing around with a Magic Eight Ball.  But when I started seeing things in the palm that actually had occurred or ended up occurring, I began to realize that this was not a game.  The most profound reading I did that affected me early on involved a couple I was quite close to.  I was a senior in high school at the time and had been reading palms since my Freshman year.  I babysat for this couple quite a bit and I admired their relationship immensely.  I told myself that when I finally got married, I wanted the kind of marriage they had.  I looked up to them in every way there is to look up to them.  I thought he was the best husband and father and she was the best wife and mother.  Then I read her hand.  It clearly showed that her marriage would end and end soon.  I didn’t believe it.  I COULDN’T believe it.  This was my ideal couple.  They were PERFECT.  Their love was unshakable.  They had known each other most of their lives…grew up together, were best friends, married out of high school.  They had two great kids.  The perfect life…the life I wanted for myself someday.  I surely figured her palms were wrong and decided then and there that palm reading wasn’t so accurate after all.  Of course I didn’t tell her what I saw.  I read all the great lines, told her all the positive stuff and ignored that divorce indication (which was present in both hands, making it more worrisome for me!).  So sure was I that it was wrong, I was not about to tell her she was going to suffer a terrible break up…her heartline and headline both indicated much turmoil.  Although her palm showed her getting through it all just fine, I couldn’t accept the negative implications.  I actually stopped reading palms for a while after this.  So anyway…a year later, she found out her husband was having an affair and he left her.  My heart broke right along with hers.  My dream of the perfect marriage…shattered.  And the realization that I saw it all in her palm…a bolt of lightening couldn’t have had a stronger effect on me!  And by the way, she did come out of it all just fine…eventually.  I still admire her immensely!  She’s an amazing woman…her palm wasn’t wrong about that!  Should I have told her what I saw?  I don’t think so.  First, she wouldn’t have believed me and second, she would have worried over it.  Would it have made her realize that something was going on sooner? Could she have stopped the affair before it began if I’d said something to warn her?  I won’t ever know the answers to that.  It’s tough decisions I have to make when I read hands and see difficult paths ahead.

Another palm reading that had quite a profound effect on me was one I did of another close friend.  Her hand indicated a health issue (she was quite healthy at the time, only in her twenties).  I couldn’t tell her what the health issue was (if I were a better palm reader, I could have) but I told her that it was going to be serious and would require hospitalization.  I also told her she was going to get through it…as indicated on one hand.  The other hand showed that she would not live much into her thirties.  I took this as a personal choice she would have to make.  Stay and fight or go with the plan.  Because it seemed to me, for whatever reason, the earlier death was her life plan (it was in the non-dominant hand).  Her other hand was iffy…the lines faded, broke or overlapped where the illness occurred.  It takes a lot of training and skill to read palms…I learned from doing…from reading thousands of palms.  It seemed to be a calling of mine…I just picked it up quite easily.  Maybe I was a gypsy in a past life?  Hmmmm….  So anyway, I figured I needed to warn her of this illness and then press home to her that she could overcome it.  Because the reading scared her and she started to cry, I immediately did my best to reassure her that she was merely getting a warning so she could prevent this thing from happening.  I truly believed that.  It’s this stuff that makes me reluctant to read hands!  Of course I want to look at a person’s palm and say, “Oh my! You are going to have the best marriage and perfect kids and lots of money and fame and joy and love and…” You get the picture.  Life, we know, doesn’t normally happen that way. (sigh).  So, anyway, my friend kept this reading in mind and when not a year later she began to have health issues (I told her that it all would be happening within a year or two at the most), she remembered what I told her and went immediately to a doctor.  She found a lump in her breast.  The doctor told her it was nothing to worry about.  The lump got bigger.  She went to another doctor who also told her that it was nothing to worry about.  She wrote me an email and said, “Deb, I know something isn’t right.  I remember what you said, that I’d have a health issue and I’m determined to find out what it is and fix it.”  She went to another doctor.  Stage four breast cancer.  She had a mastectomy, endured chemo treatments and lived another five years.  After her mastectomy, she wanted me to read an update in her palm and I could not bring myself to do it.  She understood.  Would we have got those five years of extra life if she hadn’t been so persistent to find out what was wrong with her because of a palm reading I’d done?  I wonder.  Should I have read her hand again?  I wonder that too.

It’s the toughest thing in the world to encounter a situation where someone thrusts their hands before you and demands you tell them how long they are going to live.  Some really want to know while a good many others do not. One night, during my Junior year of high school (I’d been reading palms since my Freshman year), I had a close friend of mine come to my house with her boyfriend.  They were so serious and earnest as they looked at me.  He had been diagnosed with Leukemia and was in remission.  They wanted to know if the disease was going to return and if so, how long did he have to live?  Yeah, this is the kind of awful pressure put on people who do things like palm readings and the like.  When I refused to read his hand, he looked me in the eye and said, “I NEED to know, Deb.  I have things to plan if I’m not going to live very long.  I can handle the truth.”  They both pleaded with me until I gave in…with much reluctance.  I remember my heart pounding furiously as he put his palms out before me.  I think he could tell what I saw from reading my face (I’ve since learned to keep a very good poker face when reading palms).  “How long do I have?”  He asked.  I’m a great believer in self-fulfilling prophesy…tell someone or yourself something that is truly believed to happen and it WILL happen.  If I told him he only had a few years to live, would he only have a few years to live because I told him so?  If I told him he would live a long life…would he because I told him so?  What an awful dilemma.  Knowledge comes with much responsibility.  I told him what I saw because I felt he deserved the truth.  His palms indicated that he would get sick again in a few years.  I told him that it was up to him if he wanted to stay and fight or give up and join God.  Though they were only in high school, they decided to have a child together before he lost the ability to procreate.  They had a son.  He was three when he lost his daddy.  Not to the disease but to complications rising from it.  One great thing, though…he left behind a child, one that brought my dear friend great comfort after his passing.

The tough readings are always the ones that stand out.  The great ones not so much.  Why is that I wonder?  Certainly tragedy has a greater impact on us than successes.  And truly, there are a great many success stories…wonderful stories.  I told someone that I saw a possible accident and that she needed to be very careful and vigilant over the next couple years.  Get through these next two years and your other palm indicates a great accident free life!  She kept that warning to heart and managed to avoid a serious car collision because of her caution.  She’s convinced that she would have been involved and died in that crash if she hadn’t been more careful and she was being careful because of what I told her.  Who knows if that is the case or not?

It’s hard for me to read hands of people I love and stay impartial.  I might see a line indicating something I don’t like and ignore it or find another line to dispute it.  I did this with my ex-husband.  His lines indicated that he would have affairs.  I did not want to believe he would do something like that to me and so I chose not to accept the reading.  Surely the lines were wrong.  Although there were other indications that he could not be trusted, that he liked to tell stories and had a great talent for it, I still chose to ignore the warnings.  What a painful breakup that was when the truth all finally came to light.  I can’t tell you how many times I wanted to kick myself for not taking heed.  I saw it in his hand before we married…I should have known better.  But I was also determined that I could change it…I would be such a great wife he wouldn’t want anyone else.  We cannot, no matter how hard we try, control another person’s life.  I had two choices.  Accept him and his affairs or not.  I chose not.

I’ve found talents revealed in the hand that I never would have expected of that person.  “Do you write?” I might ask someone whose palms indicate as much though they have never indicated or shown an interest in it and they would look at me in surprise.  “Yes, how do you know?”  (wish I had a dime for every time I heard THAT question!).  “Your hand shows you’ve a talent for it.  You should pursue that!”  I love giving those sorts of messages and encouragements!  “Do you like to help sick people?” (I ask this when I see what I call “nurse or sympathy” lines).  “Yes, I love helping people!”  And to this I would say, “Well, you’d make a great nurse or doctor!”  And they do!

I’ve been writing since I was old enough to think up stories.  You can’t even begin to guess how many times I look at my palms trying to determine if there is a best-seller in my future! (smile)  I can’t read my own hands.  I’m just not impartial enough.  I know I’ve a talent for writing…my pinky finger tells me so!  I know that it’s an obsession with me so it must be a “calling” but as for my success with it…I guess I’ll have to see if those lines mean what I think they do or if I’m just wishing for something that isn’t there.  We’ll see.  Time will tell.  I’ve got to find me a good palmist and find out.  I’ve never been very good with patience…and THAT is clear to read in my hand even for me!!

Okay, I’m done for now.  Thanks for stopping by and reading my ramblings!! Blessings to all and Peace Out!


The Fortune Teller by Caravaggio.

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Foretelling the future has been around since humans began to master communication.  It was common belief among the masses, in the early days of mankind, that certain things gave indication of future events (red skies at night, sailor’s delight).  It was also accepted that some people had the gift for seeing into the future.  Think Nostradamus! The Oracle of Delphi! or (my favorite!) Edgar Casey.  Casey wasn’t limited to seeing future events, he was also privy to past ones and current ones happening a world away!  How cool to see life’s timeline forward and backward, space and distance irrelevant!

Somewhere along the line, as various religions became more powerful and influential, their leadership managed to put a dark mark on these ancient practices.  Countless people have been brutally murdered over the years for dabbling in “occult” activity..one of them being, of course, fortune telling.  First of all, I think the “fortune” part should have been banned, not the “telling” part.  And no…I don’t care what bible passage you quote me, I do not believe that palm reading, Tarot cards, divining rods, pendulums, runes, astrology, numerology, etc. are evil (certainly they can be used for evil…but so can God…aren’t some of the terrorists of the day conducting their heinous acts in “the name of God”?).  I don’t believe it because it was God (and again…don’t come back at me and say, “Not everyone believes in God” because I do and this is my blog and if you don’t believe in God and don’t want to read on, you are welcome to “x” out but before you do…thanks for stopping by and many blessings to you!!) … so where was I?  Oh yes, I believe that God (or whatever name you want to call this omniscient creator of all that is …the Universe, Divine Intelligence, Yahweh, etc) is the creator of every single thing in existence.  If it has a name, it exists and God created it.  God created us too, obviously, and thus our palms!  He (although I don’t think of God as a person, because obviously “he” is not, I use the pronoun here just for ease of writing) created the heavens (thus the astrological planets!), the tea leaves, the cards, the pendulum, the crystal ball, or whatever is used to evaluate/analyze a person or situation or event.  As for numbers…their creation was the inspiration of God.  If you don’t believe this…then where did all these things come from?  And how is it that they are more accurate than not?

Okay, this isn’t going to be a persuasive post on why you should believe in various forms of divination (a better word than fortune telling).  I’m way too lazy and busy at this point to look up all the various references that explain how it works and why it works and blah blah blah.  First of all, if you don’t believe in it, nothing I say is going to matter, and if you are convinced it’s evil, nothing I say is going to matter.  So, this post, essentially, is for people who do believe, might believe, are open to believing or perhaps are just plain curious.

There are several divination activities that I am actively involved in: The Tarot, Palmistry, and Numerology.  I believe in Astrology but it’s a difficult art to learn and I just haven’t the time.  I leave it to the “masters”.  I always thought Tarot cards were silly and impossible until I learned about energy and divine influence and how nothing…absolutely nothing…is by luck or chance.  I’m best at Palmistry but am pretty good with Numerology as well.  I would love to be doing more of those things but I just haven’t the time.  Recently, I was interviewed by Cege Smith on her blog (interview link) about my book “Be Still, My Love” and I offered to do a numerology analysis for a randomly chosen commenter.  I thought it would be cool to do an analysis since I haven’t done one in awhile and its good to keep my psyche “well oiled” in the process.  You know, the “use it or lose it” rule and all that.  It’s truly amazing what your numbers (those associated with your name or birth) can tell you about yourself and your life.

My favorite form of personal analysis is Palmistry.  I was 16 when I found myself in homeroom class and nothing to read.  My teacher told me to get a book from her “library” (a bookshelf in front of her desk).  I browsed the titles and saw “The Art of Palmistry” and grabbed it.  Our desks were formed in groups of six and the other five desks in my group were filled with boys.  All of whom were on the football team.  Being a very shy introvert, I was quite intimidated to be sitting with them, but when I finally found my way to homeroom class that first day of school, it was the only seat open.  So anyway, the boys wanted to see what I was reading and they immediately popped their hands out for me to read.  Mind you, I JUST picked the book up.  My mind began to spin with the possibilities this little book could give me should I learn its contents.  Perhaps I might make friends and expand my tight little hang-out group. Perhaps people (boys!) would seek me out and I could HELP them (poor lost, clueless souls that they were! lol)  Yeah, grandiose dreams, but I was a shy teenage girl who wanted to break out of that shell.  Palmistry did that for me, let me tell you!  As I began to “get it” and learn the craft a little better, I discovered that it was pretty darned accurate!  The more hands I read, the more I learned, the more I understood this thing was the REAL DEAL.

I can honestly say that I’ve read thousands and thousands of hands over the past 30 plus years (where in the HECK did all the time go?) and I have not found the palms to lie.  It isn’t so much about telling your future as it about telling you about you!  Every aspect of your hand gives a clue to the person you are, have been and could be!  The first thing I do when I meet people or see someone who catches my interest (good or bad) is look at their hands.  I don’t need to read their palms to figure things out like temperament (watch out for large bulbous thumbs!), whether they are a leader (look for long fingers, especially the “pointer” finger!), if they can pay attention to detail (small hands!), are quick to make decisions (smooth, short fingers), or if they over think stuff (long,knotted…knuckle joints are large…fingers).  You want to know something…anything about a person…their hands are going to tell…hands down (sorry, but I just couldn’t resist).

I remember when I was going through a really bad time in my life, I was looking hard at my hands, doing my numbers, having my cards read and thinking we need a therapist in the world who can do all these things.  What better way to get help overcoming adversity and heartbreak than by looking at your life’s blueprints?  I even thought about it…becoming an expert in palmistry, the Tarot and numerology and then offering myself up to counseling people as they needed it.  Honestly, I think it would benefit anyone and everyone if they could see their “life plan” as God intended it (mapped out while in our spiritual forms before descending into hell, I mean, Earth!)  I still think this is an awesome idea…I’d be there in a heartbeat!  It’s really hard to stay impartial and do a “reading” for yourself.

There are countless guideposts God put in place to help “his” children navigate through life.  Unfortunately, we’ve demonized, ignored and ridiculed a lot of them.  Pure silliness.  But, believe what you will.  We all do!!

If you ever have the chance to have your cards, palms or numbers analyzed, you should give it a try, but there’s no getting around the fact that there are a lot of phony people out there (giving these divination practices further bad rap) who don’t know what they are doing though they’ll charge you handsomely for it.  Honestly, they shouldn’t be charging a lot for their services…certainly their time is important and they should get something for it…but they shouldn’t be out to empty your bank account.  God given gifts were meant to be shared, and if a price must be put on it, that price should be an affordable and modest one!  Also, it’s best if you can get some recommendations on the person you are about to approach for an analysis.  There’s enough information “out there” these days to learn nearly anything you need to know about someone. Check the internet and see what’s being said.  Just keep in mind that people can be real mean to others, deserved or not, and other people can be too generous.  You can always go with your “gut feeling”.  It’s really true that we all know the truth about everything.  Just most of us are closed off to that all knowing part of ourselves!

Maybe someday I’ll share some of my own palm reading experiences, they are truly remarkable and why I believe in it so much.

Okay, that’s it.  I’m done for now.  Until next time, blessings to all and Peace Out!


One of the most fascinating things I happened to stumble upon in my teen years was the discovery of Palmistry.  Sitting in homeroom class, bored and nothing to read, not a paper to be had in which to write a story, I glanced at the bookshelf next to me.  It was a selection of books the teacher had up for offer to bored students.  The first one to grab my attention was the one that simply said “Palmistry” on the spine.  I pulled it out and so began my lifelong indulgence in the art of reading palms.

At first I did it out of fun, reading my hand, my friends’, my family members’, and then when I started learning stuff from their hands that actually had merit (things I didn’t know about them until I saw it in their hands), I realized palmistry is something to be taken much more seriously.  It is the “real deal” and a very useful thing to know.

Every line in your palm has meaning and is there for a reason (even the area where you might have a scar has significance, and no the significance is not that you were cut or burned or whatever!).  The shape, size, color, texture….every single thing about your hand reveals something about you.  Although every part of your hand is important and gives great insight into your life, the thumb, in my opinion, is the most fascinating part to study.  At a glance, you can learn a LOT about a person just from the thumb (temperament!!) and that comes in pretty “handy” let me tell you!  Over the course of thirty years, I’ve literally read thousands of palms.  And I’ve never been wrong with the information I’ve garnished from them.  Never.  Not bragging here, just letting you know how very accurate this practice is.  Okay, I take that back. There is ONE area I haven’t been totally right on and that is the lines for determining children (how many and what sex they’ll be).  For some reason, I have a hard time with that.  I am scoring about 50/50 on that issue.  I wish I had time to learn Palmistry even more than I already do because it is such a useful thing to know.  I don’t just think its accurate or BELIEVE in it, I KNOW palmistry is accurate and reliable and helpful.

Your palm is the best place to go if you want to know something about yourself or about significant events that MAY happen (based on your beliefs and lifestyle and whatnot, the most PROBABLE future is there in your palm to see).  Nothing is written in stone and every choice you make changes the life course you are on.  If I see something alarming in someone’s palm, then I give a warning about it and then it’s up to the palm’s owner if they want to do something to avoid that alarming event.  Palmistry is not about doom and gloom.  It is a useful tool to help you become all that you want to be.  The better you know yourself, the better equipped you are to go after what you want.  When someone reads your palm, it should be a positive experience, not a frightening one.

A year after graduating high school, I ended up joining the Air Force and that put a halt to my palm reading activities.  At least to a certain extent.  I wasn’t sure if the military would approve of me engaging in that activity so I kept it to myself and shared it only with close friends.  Not that my attempts to keep such a thing under wraps mattered, because those whom I shared this secret with would get excited and tell their friends.  If I were at an event with lots of people (usually a party) and someone was there who knew I read palms, it wasn’t long before word got out and everyone was sticking their palms in front of me and begging for a reading.  I don’t blame them, really, because I’d do the same thing!

I would LOVE to have someone read my palms.  I’ve gone to a few so-called palm readers (a big palm sign hanging over their shop would lure me in) and this is what they’d do…glance at my palm (usually just one and you can’t get an accurate reading with just ONE hand, both of them must be read) and then they’d start talking, but they wouldn’t even be looking at my hands!  That, my friends, is a psychic reading.  A palm reading is just that…the examination and analysis of the palms and the lines on them.  Staring into my eyes while holding my hands is NOT a palm reading.  Now, don’t get me wrong, I enjoy getting psychic readings as well, but when I go in and pay someone for a palm reading, that is what I want.  Sadly, I have yet to find an authentic palm reader.  So why don’t I just read my own hand, you might ask?  Well, I do.  Constantly.  And why do I do it so often?  Well, because the lines change over time and that’s because we are constantly changing!  Major decisions impact our life course and that impacts the lines in our hands.  The problem is, it’s hard for me to read my own palms because I just can’t be subjective enough to give myself an accurate reading.  It’s the case of “seeing what you want to see and not seeing what you don’t want to see”.  Yeah, I fall victim to that sometimes.  Dang it.

One of the major reasons I became shy about my palm reading activity while in the military is because of what happened while going through technical training school (when you join the military, you complete basic training first, then typically go to technical training school directly after to learn your trade.  Once you graduate from that, the military sends you to your first duty assignment to begin your career).  A girl going through the school with me and assigned to the dorm room next to mine was a Satanist!  Now, when I first learned this (the rumor spread like wildfire), it scared me quite a bit.  I thought it was just my dumb luck to be living next door to evil.  I guess I worried she might bring bad things within my vicinity or who the heck knows.  Everyone was somewhat afraid of her.  But come on…a DEVIL worshiper?  I imagined her sacrificing animals and doing weird rituals and basically carrying out evil deeds.

One night she and I had to stay in the dorm and watch over it (I think there was a power failure or something).  Somehow I was the unfortunate one who got stuck pulling that duty with her.  I was scared to death!  I have to say, though, despite her choice of worship, she seemed rather nice.  She smiled at everyone, was very polite and there was something rather sad about her.

At some point during the night, I began to relax around her because she was just so pleasant.  I was thinking, of course, “devil in disguise!!”  Finally we began to talk and I got to know this girl and where she was coming from.  She had a difficult childhood (explains some of it right there!) and lots of personal issues which she was working hard to resolve. Somewhere along the way, she was introduced to devil worship.  Now, according to her, the devil is a misunderstood entity.  She said that God needs him to keep balance … you can’t have good if there is no bad.  That sort of philosophy.  I don’t remember all our conversation but I do remember this:  she did not kill animals or anything else, she considered that the devil was God’s assistant.  Now, I’m just telling you what she believed.  I was not convinced in any way by her argument.  Really, for the most part, I just felt sorry for her because I felt she was being led to believe something that just wasn’t true.  I remember thinking as we talked that she was seriously misdirected.  She really was a nice girl and she was very upset by how everyone was treating her.  She truly came across as a kind soul and that just didn’t go along with the devil-worship thing but there you have it.  Sometimes life is stranger than fiction!   She did not harbor any resentment towards anyone for how they were treating her and, really, I think her thoughts were along the lines that WE (the non-devil worshipers) all needed help and were operating under serious misconceptions.  She felt she had to accept the shunning she was getting from everyone (except from a lot of the guys who thought, for some reason, that she would be an “easy lay”.  Crude, I know, but that’s what they thought!) because, like the devil, she was misunderstood.  She was equating her present experience with that of Satin’s … he was misunderstood, shunned and feared…and so was she.  Again, she had issues and needed some guidance but the gist of it all is this…she was not an evil person out to do evil deeds.  She really did have a kind heart and I tried to get the word out on her behalf that she was not evil doing evil deeds.  It didn’t matter.  The military kicked her out.

Although palmistry has NOTHING to do with the devil or evilness, it is considered an occult practice and many people associate the occult with evil. The truth is, ANYTHING can be evil if it is treated and used that way.  Our intentions determine the quality of everything … good or bad.  There are some occult practices that are focused on “the dark side” (meaning without God) but not ALL of them are for cripes sakes!! Because of the misconceptions about the occult in this respect, I was worried that this would result in my removal from the military if I were to be caught reading palms.  I realize now that that wouldn’t have happened unless I was running around making people uncomfortable but I didn’t know that then.  I was careful about whom I shared this little secret of mine with because I knew that some people were very much against it. Truly, though, I fail to understand why anyone would consider this particular practice evil.  What exactly is evil about it?  Our palms are not evil.  The lines in our palms are not evil.  Interpreting the lines in the palm is not evil either.  Since God is the one who created our palms and then put the lines there, to then say we are not allowed to read those lines is equivalent to God writing a book which we are then forbidden to read!  Why write the book?  Why put those lines there?  To taunt us with knowledge we cannot use?

For the most part, palmistry is more of a personal biography than anything and what’s so wrong with discovering yourself?  The problem here is that people dead set against it will always be so and no amount of reason will change that.  So all I have to say is this, they can believe what they will, and I will believe what I will.  Isn’t free will grand?

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